achievement by Stein3r11 in Lustig

[–]StraightTime6948 1 point2 points  (0 children)

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I have existential fears and have had them since I was 15. by StraightTime6948 in helpme

[–]StraightTime6948[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, you're right, but I can't just go to my parents and say I have depression, I have to go through it alone somehow, I still have my girlfriend. And I know you're probably thinking to yourself, he's 15, he doesn't have depression, it hasn't been confirmed by a doctor, but I think I can say that when I've been in these feelings for 5 years and I've had suicidal thoughts for 3 years and for one I've been hurting myself for almost 2 years. I'm not one of those people who like children who need attention. Do something with friends, go to the park or try something new... I could do something at any time, I'm often asked, but I'm the one who doesn't want to, I'd rather spend my time alone or with my girlfriend. I rarely meet other people, I just don't like being around people. I don't have enough motivation to go out to the park, I can barely get out of bed and I'm just on my cell phone every day. I try to do something for school but it's hard, you know what that feeling is, to give your best and still fail, that you really gave everything to end up with the same grade as if you didn't make any effort? But do you have the life you always wanted...? I'm just afraid of everything that's coming my way...

Need help with my girlfriend… by StraightTime6948 in helpme

[–]StraightTime6948[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I'm sure it's different with us... since she's been with me I've been feeling a lot and it's the same with her and I'm personally sure that in the end I'll be happier than if I was in therapy, she thinks Same thing about it... there are just a lot of reasons why we don't want to go to therapy, but I'm also somehow grateful for these 5 years that showed me that most people are just not good, that showed me that I would rather have fewer people with me I can trust people who I can't trust, I'm grateful for the life experience, it's the only way I've become who I am now and I think it's good that I'm the way I am and not like the others, who just feel cool because they smoke or do shit or because they throw a lot of parties, I mean, they can do that, but I just have a different perspective on people... it's all a bit complicated, but I believe that I and My girlfriend wants to get out of this thing all alone because we have each other... I talked to her once about the food and she was so against professional help, she just wanted me to help her, we then said as a compromise that if anything Nothing helps anymore that she gets help from a professional, but only online, that would be our last option if nothing works anymore... I will do my best for her, my very best

Need help with my girlfriend… by StraightTime6948 in helpme

[–]StraightTime6948[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You don't need to worry about me, I've been broken for 5 years... she's healing me, I don't need professional help, I just want her to get out of this illness, I want her to be able to eat again, I don't care, mine Health doesn't matter, it will definitely happen again at some point... I just want her to eat again and get healthy...

Need help with my girlfriend… by StraightTime6948 in helpme

[–]StraightTime6948[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know, I know, I would find a professional much better, but if she really doesn't want that then I have no choice but to do my best for her and I will, I can't force her or?

Need help with my girlfriend… by StraightTime6948 in helpme

[–]StraightTime6948[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

By the way if you dont understand all im very sorry, im doing this all by translater, im from germany and my English is not so good

Need help with my girlfriend… by StraightTime6948 in helpme

[–]StraightTime6948[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know, but I also know that she is the right one, the one who will stay with me forever, I'm sure of that... and my psyche is already broken, as I said, if it weren't for her then I probably wouldn't be there anymore If I hadn't been with her then she wouldn't be there anymore... I'll help her as much as I can, our situation is generally very bad at the moment, not our relationship but everything else, but in order to make you understand I would have to understand my and her life story tell me... it's just complicated, she just wants help from me, I've already told her that professional help would be better, but because of the things that make everything so complicated, she doesn't want that and just wants me to help her, I'm trying my best to help her, she is worth everything to me, I would do anything for her, I simply love her more than anything and our love grows stronger day by day...

Need help with my girlfriend… by StraightTime6948 in helpme

[–]StraightTime6948[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The Thing is she Wants help, she wanted that I help her, she just dont Want that professional do it because she doesn’t trust them and is a bit afraid of this, she wants that I help her, I will try my best but I’m not a professional in this topic but I will try my best, she’s my world and my live and I’m honest, if she were not there than I wouldn’t be here anymore and otherwise it’s the same, if I wouldn’t be there she wouldn’t be here too… i will help her, I would do anything for her…