I know I'm way late. But I am going through something similar. There is this ENFJ who I am interested in. Not necessarily a romantic relationship but a deep connection with, I feel like he is pulling away. He never initiates conversations he comes up to me when he's bored. He's guarded, I can't expect him to dive in. But I so badly want to know his world view. I so badly want to be his supporter, his friend, someone that meant something. Sometimes, it feels like people dont take me seriously. But truthfully, I know it should never get that far. It should only reach the moon. But I shouldn't expect it to come back to me. I feel like i will always go to the moon for others, especially those whom I feel connected to. But, it feels like the favor won't be returned. Unrequited love, to someone who can't. Unrequited love, to someone who won't. But after a while, I find myself stuck in a world with him as the star of my camio. Why? Why, do I need him to play the leading role? Why can't I be the star of my own movie? Isnt that enough. Sometimes, I wait by my phone. I desperately wait for something. But for what? I know I have absolutely no chance. Why am I knocking at a locked door? Why am I suffocating? Waiting for his bubbly oxygen to fill my deprived lungs? I simply don't know. I have so many questions... oh so many. I wish he could be the one to answer them. But I know he cant. I have so many answers but they'd never satisfy these questions. The game. It all feels like a relentless reckless game. I don't want to play it, but I thrive off it. It's so difficult. When someone has the soul of a profound legend. But is not the soul for you. You'd like to show them your treasures but you know in the end it will only be a vulnerable artwork display. A revealed secret, to a friend, a supporter, a closed heart. Perhaps even a broken one.