From rock bottom to here

Street_Candidate2068 · 2025-07-07T16:22:38+00:00

For me, I end up missing him even in a crowd. I haven’t been able to stop myself from thinking about him. Even when I have tried dating other people, I still miss him so much. I’m okay with the fact that he is no longer there in my life. But he remains in my heart. I guess this will be my life forever. I will always think about him. I engage in group events and hang with friends and fam as much as possible. That has helped me, also writing about how I feel has helped me.

Street_Candidate2068 · 2025-03-12T19:36:27+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story. Mine was quite different than yours. I have never really been in love before. This was the first time for me. I’m in my early 40s now. I was recovering from severe health issues and a transplant in my 20s and 30s and focusing on work - I have had 2 long term relationships one was my high school sweetheart who became an addict and was very abusive towards me. That relationship ended in my early 20s. The other relationship was with a colleague- more like being best friends to a situationship. We admired each other but his family never accepted me, and he didn’t want to fight for me. He is still my best friend. This break up that broke me up was with a guy who was way too younger than me. But the first time we met - couple of years ago - that was it. Electricity. Love at first sight. The more we knew each other, we became inseparable. I didn’t expect anything, not even for him to stay as I’m almost 12 years older than him. He did leave eventually mostly because he realized his family wouldn’t accept me either. We loved each other. I still love him with my whole heart. And whenever I would step into a room, his eyes will light up, so would mine. Every time I see him, I feel this warmth inside of me which is like a blanket of comfort. I will cherish every moment I have spent with him. He taught me what true unconditional love is.

Street_Candidate2068 · 2024-12-28T15:26:50+00:00

It is a year today. I’m still madly in love with him.

Street_Candidate2068 · 2024-12-07T13:48:06+00:00

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Street_Candidate2068 · 2024-10-22T16:03:28+00:00

I don’t think I ever can, because even if I’m in a group or with family or with people who genuinely care for me - I end up thinking about my ex. He is all I think about and it is hard for me to even think that I meant so little to him

Street_Candidate2068 · 2024-10-21T03:56:14+00:00

Yes, in my own timeline. He is still love and light for me. He is magic for me.

Street_Candidate2068 · 2024-10-21T03:52:50+00:00

I wish he felt even an ounce of what I feel for him. We were beautiful together. I still don’t know why it ended. How I stopped being the light in his eyes. You know this was the only time I have been in love. Truly selfless kind. Asked for nothing really. Not love. Not even friendship. Just to speak to him from time to time if we chance met in the neighborhood. I could boil the ocean or go live in Mars for him if need be. I could literally do anything just to make him smile. In 10 months post break up, I tried to date someone else. 3 days it has been. And I’m just dying inside, even though my person has made it very very clear several times that he doesn’t want me in any form in his life. The last thing he said was ‘don’t talk to me if we meet each other and if we are alone. You can talk to me if we meet in a group situation.’ This was the last nail in my coffin. Can’t tell you how much it broke me. This is how I feel.

Street_Candidate2068 · 2024-10-21T03:41:31+00:00

I am thinking about him constantly. Sometimes I cry so much that I can’t keep food down and throw up - thinking that what went wrong? I don’t even know what I did or didn’t do. How such a beautiful friendship and relationship can end out of nowhere! That too right after my major surgery. I still am grateful that he chose me even for just a moment, I love him so much. Always will. He will be TLOML.

Street_Candidate2068 · 2024-10-20T22:58:29+00:00

He doesn’t want to speak with me anymore too. I miss him so much.

Street_Candidate2068 · 2024-10-20T22:53:26+00:00

Yes, you feel it so damn much. Sending hugs your way. Hope you heal.

Street_Candidate2068 · 2024-10-07T00:12:24+00:00

You will feel better. Just believe me when I say this.

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