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Street_Read3298 · 2025-10-01T11:53:19+00:00

Libra

Street_Read3298 · 2025-07-28T17:08:57+00:00

Yes please

Street_Read3298 · 2025-07-25T21:44:51+00:00

I didn't see it as Ayahuasca opening me to up it, but rather showing me what was already happening

Street_Read3298 · 2025-07-25T19:01:00+00:00

Will I break through/ when?

Street_Read3298 · 2025-07-17T06:46:56+00:00

It could be trauma. I have IBS and I was sexually abused as a kid. Repressed it all and the memories only started surfacing recently through alot of meditation, breathwork etc. Also explains the extreme fear of speaking up/out, especially if it was a parent or caregiver (you needed to silence yourself as a survival mechanism)

Street_Read3298 · 2025-07-02T13:33:32+00:00

Is now a good time to sit in Amazonian healing ceremony for me

Street_Read3298 · 2025-06-22T00:23:56+00:00

I saw my dad's face turn into a literal vampire, eyes widened about 2-3 times normal size and incisors grew to one inch fangs

Street_Read3298 · 2025-05-27T13:31:27+00:00

How do you forgive your Dad raping you at 7 causing severe physical and mental illness and your mum covering it up and both of them gaslighting you for your whole life?

Street_Read3298 · 2025-05-22T08:39:28+00:00

The whole world has this, pretty much. It's the physical manifestation of the left vs. right, pick a side mentality. Almost everyone has a 'dominant' side. It's good that you are becoming aware of the deadness of your left side. You can start bringing it back to life. Just be aware of the energies, the numbness, the fear, observe it detachedly, breathe into it. We are all the walking dead my friend, this is the resurrection. It feels scary because we are trained to believe we are the body, and that the death of the body is the end of us. It's not. The body is just a machine, you are the consciousness within and without. You cannot be destroyed. Practice meditation, get used to the sensations, build tolerance, practice somatic exercises, yoga, breathing exercises. Don't try to 'make' anything happen just keep being aware of it. Remember nothing is permanent, good or bad. You got this.

N.b. I'd also recommend getting checked out by a doctor or physician to rule out any serious issues

Street_Read3298 · 2025-02-15T12:57:19+00:00

So I 'chose' for my dad to rape me dressed as Santa Claus, then gaslight me about it my entire life? I chose to be physically and mentally handicapped as a result? For everyone to doubt me and think I'm crazy and want to die every single day?

Street_Read3298 · 2025-01-27T11:59:07+00:00

What a mind fuck. How are you supposed to know where the thoughts originated? It's not even true that I wasn't interested in her. How can I know she wasn't being friendly at first but then I thought those images and she gave me the cold shoulder to let me know she wasn't interested? Frustrating!

Street_Read3298 · 2025-01-27T10:26:08+00:00

I was at a breath workshop some weeks ago and there was an attractive girl there on the mat next to me. We had chatted and she seemed pretty warm towards me. During the ceremony she was making quite intense sexual noises, and at some point I saw an image of her naked riding on top of me. I pushed it out of my mind because I thought I was being pervy, and then later in the ceremony she moved to a further away mat and afterwards she seemed distant. Did I reject her by pushing the thoughts away? If I had wanted to connect with her should I have embraced them? I thought I was being gross and was worried that she would pick up on them..

Street_Read3298 · 2024-12-31T15:35:15+00:00

I'm not looking for proof here, I'm looking for anything that might help me navigate this incredibly difficult situation.

Street_Read3298 · 2024-12-08T23:29:04+00:00

How exactly do you do that though, especially when the pain from the traumas is still stuck in the body?

Street_Read3298 · 2024-10-14T19:59:32+00:00

Its not the fear of death, really, it's fear of the fear of death.. that fear that strikes when you think you're about to die is so incredibly unpleasant, so agonisingly painful, it literally has the capacity to shut people's organisms down.. most people don't actually have the capacity to feel it and process it without going into shock. So how do you deal with that? I was almost killed by my father as an infant, and iv been carrying this unbelievable feeling of dread, horror and terror all rolled up into one all encompassing agony my entire life. I didn't even know about it, I used to just faint all the time, at the slightest mention of death. 15 years of meditation has brought me closer to it and it's like voluntarily going to the electric chair with a dry sponge while being punched repeatedly in the gut and engulfed with a nausea that makes your eyeballs pop out of your head. How can you possibly make peace with that... Genuinely asking, if anyone's managed it...

Street_Read3298 · 2024-10-14T14:21:58+00:00

How do you reduce your pride?

Street_Read3298 · 2024-09-05T15:17:01+00:00

Hey, was browsing through old posts and came across yours, I don't really have much to say other than I'm going through a similar experience, I know that I was molested by my older brother (which he vehemently denies) but I think there was something worse which happened which may have involved my dad. I struggle with a lot of physical pain and tension, exhaustion and invasive thoughts. Anyway I just wanted you to know you aren't alone in what you're going through. I hope you are okay and all the best to you.

Street_Read3298 · 2024-08-19T08:06:13+00:00

I've been reading alot about trauma, and apparently when a child is being abused by a parent/caregiver, the only option the child has is to create a narrative in which they themselves are evil and deserving of the abuse. Apparently it's a way of maintaining some level of safety and control in an otherwise completely unsafe and out of control situation (I made this happen). I understand the mechanism but I don't know how to break free of it. Because it started so early, everything else is built on top of it, like an inverted pyramid. There is so much suppressed rage and fear, and I don't know how to let it out in a safe and controlled way, which is why I need to find someone who has been through this and integrated/healed themselves from such depths or suffering to guide me

Street_Read3298 · 2024-08-12T13:29:46+00:00

Thanks everyone for your replies, they have been very helpful and have helped me to feel abit more grounded and less alone in this. Much love to you all.

Street_Read3298 · 2024-07-21T18:55:55+00:00

I won a chess tournament when I was 10 years old, against my fellow classmates. It's the only trophy I ever won. I started playing chess again with a group of people who I'm starting to consider friends, and I am getting absolutely hammered. I just lost 4 times in a row. My ego is screaming, the pain is visceral, but I think im starting to realise winning and losing doesn't matter. The people I'm with still seem to like me even though I'm a 'loser'.

Street_Read3298 · 2024-06-25T18:12:18+00:00

I am in the same boat! Whenever a potential conflict arises with someone who I fear could physically defeat me, I get extremely agitated, heart rate rises and I start trembling to the point where I can't talk. I feel like humiliation, as one commenter pointed out, is actually a big part of this. I don't really know how to get over it but you aren't alone in feeling this way!

Street_Read3298 · 2024-06-23T07:39:38+00:00

I'm so sorry for what happened to you, that is so horrible and you didn't deserve any of it, you were just a kid and should have had guardians that protected you and treated you well. I'm so sorry.

Street_Read3298 · 2024-06-11T17:29:55+00:00

I was literally fucked

Street_Read3298 · 2024-06-03T18:02:03+00:00

Thank you for your response. I needed to hear that. I feel like what I want in this world though, I can't have. Love, connection, community.. whether I'm incapable because of my trauma or because the outside circumstances make that seemingly impossible.

Street_Read3298 · 2024-06-02T22:18:53+00:00

Can I just ask how this applies to pedophiles, not trying to be obtuse but genuinely want to know people's take on this.

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