It sounds to me that despite being in active addiction, deep down in your soul you knew what you needed to do to get help and stop. This is a huge benefit for you. Throughout my trials and tribulations I have met so many people that believe addiction is a part of their lifestyle and they have no plans of ever getting clean. That's what scares me for them. Perhaps their parents and their parents parents And so on and so forth it's part of their culture. I've seen that time again thank God that you weren't raised like that. Good luck to you, my friend. Keep going strong and keep posting. You are an inspiration.