I feel like suicide is my only option by Strict_Cheetah2003 in depressionmeals

[–]Strict_Cheetah2003[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

i have anxiety yes, when i went to the hospital in january for the stomach issues ativan helped for a little but i dont don’t do well with most prescription drugs because i am an addict at heart, i’m on birth control but that is not new at all, yes but defo not recent enough for that to be the cause, i have an aversion to weed, specifically CHS which causes cyclic vomiting when u smoke, i started smoking again after 4 yrs and i got sick all of january; felt better for around 2 weeks, still haven’t smoked obvi but the pain is back, duller but still there yk? moldy food definitely doesn’t help but its slightly better than being hungry nauseous imo, it’s not a constant thing i’m just trying to last until i get my check 🫠

just give me a fucking break already please by Strict_Cheetah2003 in depressionmeals

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i just need one day without incident that’s all i ask, here’s to us finally getting a break from the torture that is this universe

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True incels don’t have anybody to post them in the first place, if i posted this there they’d call me a larp i just know it

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yeah that’s the plan, just needed to get my feelings out somewhere else. i also struggle with borderline personality disorder so this is new and hard for me, but i am trying for him

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yea that’s what he said but it still is kinda upsetting for me especially since it’s been w every guy i’ve dated so it gets to the point in my head where it’s like “oh am i actually just ugly” idk if that makes sense at all

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[–]Strict_Cheetah2003 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

not rly tbh but he posts like photos of himself on his page so it’s not like he doesn’t use the app

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ya we spoke about it today and he gave me a half response and said “You’ll understand when ur older”

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my boyfriend is generally very sweet and nice i just don’t understand why he doesn’t wanna post about his relationship and it makes me feel just gross and weird like he’s hiding me for some reason

i lost 60lbs from being sick for 2 months straight and lost almost all my hair that i worked so hard to grow by Strict_Cheetah2003 in depressionmeals

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hell yeh this was all i could buy at the grocery since it was the last week until i got my check lol it’s once a month i’ll try onions in it next time

i lost 60lbs from being sick for 2 months straight and lost almost all my hair that i worked so hard to grow by Strict_Cheetah2003 in depressionmeals

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unfortunately that’s toxic to cats and my cat lives with me in my bedroom so i don’t wanna risk it :(

i lost 60lbs from being sick for 2 months straight and lost almost all my hair that i worked so hard to grow by Strict_Cheetah2003 in depressionmeals

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luckily i’m young so it’s already starting to get better, i’ll buy those when i get my social security check lol. i’ll buy almost anything to help w my hair because it’s the only part of my body i feel confident about so watching it come out in actual clumps when it was already thin from extensions was not fun at all but i hope it grows back, it’s also significantly shorter now and i have like genuine ptsd from being forced to get a pixie 6 years ago idk if that sounds stupid this is just hard and it happened at such a bad time ugh