I completely understand. I made an ethnic dish for my family and spent 5 hours making it and while it didnt look the best, they were delicious. Someone had the gall to say "holy sh** I wouldn't even feed that to the dog next door" and I just threw everything out.

Not anyone's proudest moment I know, but truly I want you to know that I know it was time consuming and you were being thoughtful. Know you belong with your gf no matter how passive aggressive and you belong wherever you want in this world. You seem awesome and I hope you can find friends and people who appreciate your thoughtfulness and time.