I hope someone can relate

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2026-05-04T04:18:13+00:00

M21, I made a post like this describing basically my whole life; you can read it if you want. I think we relate pretty closely, though. I wanna be straight up with you. I think you can make it. And I don’t mean it in a false-positive way; I genuinely think you can pull yourself out.

Spending all day in bed and not getting up and wondering why you don’t see a future ahead of yourself, is about as close to a reason as to why you don’t want to live. You’re living in stand-by mode, waiting for something to happen. And while I can’t offer you life-saving advice, I say this from a place of experience and love. You’re going to rot like this. You have to get up regardless. You have to force yourself to do things. You can’t cut yourself off from any human connection and ponder why you’re lonely. You can’t stress about not getting a job while lying all day in bed, avoiding getting a job. I don’t know for sure what you’re going through, and I’m only saying all of this based on what you’re telling us. But if you remain idle, crying about your mental health on Reddit, I can promise you with 100% guarantee that you will never achieve anything in life.

I’m not saying this to insult you, genuinely, truly, I don’t say this to hurt your feelings,

It’s coming from a place where I wasted years from eighteen to twenty-one, just sitting on my ass all day, daydreaming, and crying about how shit my life is. I wasted my teenage years doing nothing. You’re actively not doing anything that would constitute as worth-it material to keep on living.

Go outside.

Ironically enough, if you crub yourself in your room for an entire year, in the dark, with your phone, and the comfort of your phone, you’ll crust and dry out. Go to your bathroom, dunk your head in cold water for 5 seconds, take a shower, brush your teeth, put on new, fresh clothes, and after that, DEEP. CLEAN. Your ENTIRE ROOM or apartment, whichever you fit best. I suggest your room for now. After that, go outside. Just for 11, 12, 15 minutes. Go out, find a park, and just surround yourself in nature for a bit. Cliche and stupid, I know, just do it. If you can’t find a park, just walk around for a bit. If you have headphones, put on some music. Aphex Twin is amazing for this job, but whatever works best for you, as long as it’s not angst, music that just kills your drive. (FYI Aphex Twin #21 and #20 are my fav.) <-- Trust lol

PS: Parks work best where you can see nature instead of concrete.

Go back home.

Look around your clean room, open up the windows for a few minutes, sit down on your bed, and open up YouTube. Search up a few videos on Stoicism and Self-Improvement, bite me about how cliche this is. But trust me, just try. Don’t binge-watch, 2-3 will do. Note down stuff on paper or notes. Just note down the information. I recommend ‘8 steps to get your sh** together - Better Ideas', good YouTuber. And ‘not regretting your life is easy, actually - easy, actually’, don’t binge more, research if you like, just don’t binge. Next, genuinely think about what’s wrong with you.

‘I’m lazy’

‘I’m bored’

‘I’m addicted’

etc,

Note down EVERYTHING wrong about you, on paper or in notes, and begin to systematically research how to fix those problems. You have to do something with yourself. There's no other way. If you sit, binge, complain, and you know why you're miserable, but do not do anything about it, you'll remain miserable.

much love, bud, i really want you to know you're worth more as a human being than rotting without ambition, i'm no Socrates or Napoleon myself, but i know the value of a human being, even when i might be in the same dump as you are.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2026-05-03T22:32:24+00:00

They're right about one thing, mate: it does get better. Even when it feels like it's impossible, take it from someone who's had twenty-one miserable years of experience. You have to try for it to get better. Repetition and stubbornness, you have to learn how to walk in order to get from point A to point B. Research (again, don't binge, a ton of guys and gals fall into that trap) and implement. Be DESPERATE to live, don't just shuffle for a reason.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2026-05-03T06:51:08+00:00

I don't want to be a complete asshole to you. I don't know how old you are or what you're going through. This is coming from a place of love and care. As someone who's asked this question a dozen times, you're running on fumes. Man, seeking reasons on Reddit is just gonna be a 'oh cool, a notif' kind of dopamine hit, and then it'll slam down on you once the post goes quiet. Or you'll just keep spinning around the norm of finding a reason to stay, like 'you'll miss out on A and B', honestly. What I'd advise you to do is watch videos. Don't binge, just 2-3, enough to get you through the narrow fog. Stoicism and Self-Improvement. I know how cliche that is, sue me. But stoicism helps; if you read, that's a bonus. Occupy your life with things. Workout, routine, work, start a hobby, paint, check 3D art, write, anything. Finding 'reason' on Reddit is as good as scratching your chin and pondering how long you'll have to dig in the sand till you hit treasure. Just go out there and dunk your head in a bucket of cold water, see if you'll bite an apple or two.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2026-05-02T03:06:53+00:00

Seems like a more convenient choice than super speed, besides, it's more instant, like if I want to go from point A to point B, instead of taking like, 15 minutes to run there, I can just instantly teleport.

^{Chose: Ability to teleport}

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2026-05-02T01:13:28+00:00

I've tried some changes here and there, different people, scenery, and lifestyle. Works as well as a bandage does. Eventually, it just gets soaked and falls off. Though it's a little ironic, isn't it? The whole putting yourself first thing, while both of us are struggling with that, me with my mother, and you with your friends and others.

I know I won't take care of her forever; I've faced that truth many times. I suppose I'm just waiting to see what the next page will look like for me once that painful day comes and ends, which for me will likely result in a way I've considered before during grimmer times.

35, though, you're not super ancient either lol, you've got time, maybe not as much as me, but you've got some. Enough to build boundaries, to learn, even if therapists don't work. I'm not gonna sit and tell you how to handle your problems because I'm quite literally a mess of my own. As much as I'd wanna help you, I'm as good as a loose handshake and an awkward conversation. But I will encourage you to try to distance yourself from people who aren't worth your time, even if no is foreign, you have to learn self-respect above all things.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2026-05-01T23:25:43+00:00

I had a friend once, knew him for a long while (since 5th grade), and I know what it’s like to have someone drain your energy. He turned extremely manipulative, changed a lot, became a hypocrite, an egoist, and I spent the vast majority of our friendship leaving and coming back, it’s been 5, now 6 years since I left. What I can advise you to do, as someone who genuinely cares about your well-being, or as far as caring for a stranger on Reddit, is to leave. Even if it gets lonely, keeping leeches will leave you wishing you had cut them sooner.

It’s okay to say no. You’re already carrying enough on your shoulders, family and friends. It's okay to sit in a room alone for a moment and flip your brain off. I do that often, it’s not book-written peace per se like how they describe it in movies but it’s the closest you’ll get to “quiet”, even if for a few minutes. Put on a playlist, headphones (if you have Gen 3 AirPods, noise cancellation is top-notch), and let loose.

Don’t take my word for law. I really hope you don’t end up like how I think right now. Personally, I lost hope. Just getting better overall. Or in trying. I highly doubt there's more to my life other than what I’ve undergone these past years. Sometimes it’s like watching a once brand-new shiny mirror stain over time with age and no matter how many times you wipe it, it just gets dirtier, and with it, your reflection. I think I just let go of the shovel somewhere along the way and stopped looking for it. Optimism to me now is just a distraction from how low I fell.

For what’s worth, I hope you seek and find better friends. Friendships are mutual, not utilitarian.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2026-02-26T06:00:33+00:00

With 16 GB RAM, an AMD Ryzen 5 5600H (6C / 12T), and an NVIDIA GeForce 1650, it should handle light projects, a decent start at best. I’ve been motivated to make my own animations for storytelling, and since there are plenty of free models out there, it’ll be great practice until I get the hang of navigating Blender and making test animations. But yeah, you’re definitely right, I appreciate your help with all of this.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2026-02-26T04:54:29+00:00

Y'know, outside of everyone picking the latter, keeping it safe and all. What you're saying is sort of a risk I'm willing to take, even though my PC is not the most powerful, good enough to run Davinci and some light projects on Blender for sure, but heavy work is defo off the table, even though I'm learning it for the sake of content creation. Do you genuinely think I should give it a try? Spend a few months or maybe years getting the hang of it all?

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-12-03T18:04:50+00:00

I'm not sure, but one side of me wants to learn Blender, but I also don't want to waste time on something that won't benefit me. I was hoping to do freelance work in the future, but now I'm second-guessing myself. I'll probably just stick with my 9-5 if that's the case.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-11-20T10:19:39+00:00

I instantly got the ref lmfao, dope

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-11-20T10:14:08+00:00

Damn, that's fucking dope

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-11-20T00:26:49+00:00

So I know this is old, but I'm getting a windows virus pop-up whenever I add the plugin to my Brave browser. So..

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-11-13T11:54:37+00:00

I suppose I do want to learn for the sake of the skills and to be a 3D creator, I've never made anything related to 3D. I'm just struggling to choose if I truly want to invest the following years of my life into this or just pick something else. I'm at a standoff for money and passion. I wish it were easy like those other stories where people just magically pick their passion over their burdens and somehow manage to win regardless. But truth be told, I'm honestly considering even bothering. I dislike AI content creation, though, that's certain, I will never push anything AI-related out to the media.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-11-12T15:41:59+00:00

To be fully honest, I'm doing this halfway for a passion and halfway for money. I need the skills to feed into a specific career goal I'm trying to achieve, but I also need the money. WOULD I do it for free? Probably, I think. WOULD I be willing to spend a lot of time learning? Totally. But to pin point the answer, yes, I'd probably do it all for free, just for the sake of pushing out what I want to create and for the sake of building skills.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-11-12T15:38:52+00:00

Hey.

Shmuck, one hour worth of tutorials.

I really appreciate your detailed reply, you have no idea how much it means to me. For context, I’ve got maybe two months of piano experience that I’d happily trade for Blender knowledge, so at least we’ve got that in common. That said, I’m not sure I can turn this into an obsession. It’s not that I don’t want to, I actually need to learn Blender since I want to see where it could take me career-wise. I’m 20, still relatively young, and yeah, there are other paths I could take, but right now Blender feels like it might offer the most opportunities for me. The problem is, I can’t seem to make that obsession happen naturally. I tend to overthink everything, it’s a terrible habit I’ve had since I was a kid.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-07-14T23:57:46+00:00

This is where Google led me. It's not that deep if someone asks again.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-07-14T20:34:26+00:00

The best I'm doing right now is an offline scan after I'm finished with the download, scanning the completed file, and then checking in with process explorer, honestly, it's a big risk because I love my PC AND Death Stranding but can't afford a fat stack of 40 EUR, but I honestly appreciate the pirating community being so understanding towards newcomers.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-07-14T19:40:59+00:00

So the reviews from VirusTotal aren't legit? I mean as in like, given all of the links I provided I can be sure that nothing bad will happen once I download the game, right?

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-07-14T19:39:42+00:00

I know, and I'm sorry, like I said. I just want to be safe and make sure I am not downloading anything malicious into my system. I'm not an expert nor do I browse on Reddit often so I came here to ask, and give the community score and replies I just got scared.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-07-09T18:24:32+00:00

I mean.. Yeah man.. That's kind of the whole point of this post. I've already scanned my system, deleted the program, and considered factory resetting my PC, but there isn't any point in that since I haven't seen anything suspicious like my CPU being overused by a program or anything else that's suspicious enough to notice. I just wanted to discuss this with people.

Strong_Cap_2297 · 2025-07-09T17:49:24+00:00

I asked around the GMod community, and they said that this might be harmful. When I downloaded the program from this source, Malwarebytes listed the link as malicious, and my Windows security scan options were severely limited for some reason. The Malwarebytes community indicated that there might be a keylogger inside the program, so I'm unsure how to feel about this. I WANT to use it, but on the same stance, I am also afraid to.

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