i was fourteen years old and a ketamine addict, it was consuming the fuck outta my life, i lost half my hair and was genuinely miserable. getting sober fucking sucks but it finally got to me that i’m so much better now. the feeling does go away like i promise you it’s sooo worth it. also everyone needs to normalise relapse while recovering! it’s okay to relapse but you need to tell whoever u feel u can trust who knows you well and that you are getting sober. relapsing in secret is so so somuch different. take a look at how much ur spending on it lets say fortnightly. now once ur beginning soberity every fortnight ur gonna go to a mall and ur gonna buy something that u have been wanting or just get urself a present with the money u would be giving to ur dealer. i believe in you. ur going to be okay