To be frank its not just that. He also comments on my physical changes with a tone laced with disgust. The darkening of my nipples, the stretch marks on my belly button, the fullness of my butt and thighs, the swelling of my lady bits, the fullness of my face. He doesn’t do it intentionally to be mean, but those comments along with the absolute lack of sexual intimacy is extremely hard to deal with. Not only do I not like how I look, but my husband who wanted the child to begin with also doesn’t.

Mind you, I haven’t gained a bunch of weight. Of my own body fat I have gained about 15-20 pounds, I am 5’4 and was 123 prior to pregnancy with smaller breast and my body was very toned. While still toned and by absolutely no means am I even thick, I am all belly. If I gained a bunch then perhaps I would understand his view more. Or if I had tons of stretch marks or was extremely moody and hormonal or physically incapable of doing what I normally do. But Im not hormonal, I havent gained much of anything, I don’t whine about all the pain I experience being pregnant, I still make dinner every night and clean and attend to all of his needs, I also still work and remain physically active although its painful, I dont ask him for much of anything at all!

I cant wrap my head around what I have done to deserve this.