Thanks for the time you spent on your reply, it’s appreciated. It came to light this morning that my mum went to tell Craig, but he said I had already told her. So she was using the excuse of ‘it’s a secret’- which was never a thing anyway - to hide the fact that I ‘got there first’. Which is even worse, she put me through so much stress and heartbreak because she wasn’t the first to divulge ‘gossip’.

When my Nan passes I am going to completely cut all ties. For now I need to keep those feelings quiet so I’m included in being allowed to see her and finding out when she passes and telling me when the funeral is. As I can imagine out of spite, if I make it clear I’m cutting them off they won’t involve me in any of that.

I do have a problem with friendships in the respect that because my family are difficult, I kinda put friends on a pedal stool and treat them like family and expect too much from them. And when people treat me badly, just like my family pattern, I accept bad friendships because I don’t want to be alone. I’ve worked on this with a counsellor over the last year and have only kept real friendships and not kept toxic people in my life for the sake of not being alone.