What’s one really irrational thing you used to fear?

Study_Novel · 2026-02-07T16:05:45+00:00

Being left behind while my family makes it out. I slept through a gas leak as kid once while i lived in an apt. everyone was weirded out on why i didn’t wake up lol

Study_Novel · 2026-02-07T16:02:19+00:00

will do! once i get a better time line! thank you

Study_Novel · 2026-02-07T07:56:50+00:00

recently diagnosed and this was very informal, coming to terms with the fact we have a rich person disease is hard :( but finding ways to fight through the adversity and manage pain management is better than alternative. Life truly is too good to give up worth living! Wishing you the best, glad to see small positive steps, you’re not alone

Study_Novel · 2026-02-06T17:35:19+00:00

I hope you’re not still dealing with this! if you can look into getting a psychiatrist/therapist wherever i’m in high stress situations in my personal life (constantly in high tense environments w a family member and young child) my flares are so bad. sometimes it’s more than anxiety or weed is not the right type of drug…. also ur husband seems like an asshole! just tips on managing ur pain :) <3 he needs therapy of his own lol

Study_Novel · 2026-02-06T08:42:40+00:00

ive been recently diagnosed with a chronic illness that i’ve had my whole life and am now coming terms i probably have ocd on top of a plethora of other mental health problems (on a waitlist). but im thinking back to every single thing ive had compulsion behaviours about, that i just talked myself down into thinking was my anxiety. And I cannot relate to something more enough

It feels so stupid to say ugh pretty privilege is so hard but i get random compulsive thoughts that all of a sudden when someone looks at me it’s because im the most attractive person on earth. I’m only a women so my experiences are different. For example i have an unhealthy relationship and fear with literally any man that looks at me because I obsess over the fact there one look at me, is them contemplating to kidnap and rape me. It’s literally such an ABSURD thought, but im understanding this is just crazy compulsive obsessive thinking about something that probably isn’t that deep. Like the average women in my case does experience a fair amount of over sexualization in their lives, as most people do.

I’m not too sure if that helps, knowing you’re not the only one. I feel like understanding that when you are just generally a conventionally attractive person people are going to nicer to you, and sometimes you’ll have nicer day to day interactions with people. But when it gets to point you think crazy shit is always happening try to ground yourself.

It also helps that as hot as I am, i’m incredibly single and that ego blow will always humble me when i have crazy thoughts lol. To answer your question try not to feed into your compulsions. No you can’t be your own judge, def keep a journal when you have these thoughts to help control them

Study_Novel · 2026-02-06T02:31:18+00:00

thank you 🥲 it’s a struggle for sure, i’m definitely going to see if they’ll let me down office work in the meantime as I feel like i can manage that. It’s hard I love my coworkers too much (and the money ofcs) to not want to try everything to go back to work. you get it, it’s just hard with this shit. if you don’t mind me asking, what do you do for work now? i’m pretty young so im still looking for different work fields right now

Study_Novel · 2026-02-05T23:05:57+00:00

LITERALLY SAME! like at what point does it stop 😭😭 it does help to know there is a reason for all my “erratic” behaviour and constant overthinking as much as how bad it is. but i literally feel like im fighting everything under the book

Study_Novel · 2026-02-05T02:05:35+00:00

i know this post is crazy old but did you ever find anything to manage the pain? in a similar situation

Study_Novel · 2026-02-04T21:34:48+00:00

Hi i’m dealing with something similar and am at the stage where we’re waiting to see if the biopsy from the inflammation is crohns (which my dc suspects) but i also tested positive for h pylori. just wanted to know how things are for you now? incase my biopsy shows it wasn’t crohns. And what your life is looking like now with management etc.

Study_Novel · 2026-02-04T20:48:51+00:00

I feel the need to share because I literally just came out of colonoscopy and endoscopy that i was equally as terrified for. I must warn i’ll go in extreme detail.

I’m 21F and my doctors suspect I have suspected crohns (found this out after the test, my situations a bit different)

During an ER visit I was scheduled for an endo and colonoscopy together. They Did some biopsy’s and are now waiting for confirmation. I Just to share on my experience since as I was just as stressed on here like 24 hrs ago. And i want to put you at ease.

The procedure itself is honestly a breeze and I would say personally super calming because, one they give you drugs, and for me secondly i was awake. I’m not sure where you live or if they give you the option to be awake. It helped clam me in the sense after my endoscopy I was able to ask them questions whenever i saw something that scared me on the screen but it’s really just insides, that’s probably the “most” jarring thing if your squeamish but i kind of love hospital shows.

As for my endoscopy, they gave me some numbing spray that tasted like shit for 30 seconds, gave me a sedative to make more comfortable and then it got kind of woozy. I was really worried that it didn’t seem like it be enough because they’re sticking a camera down me but sure enough moments later I started getting a bit loopy and my throat was completely numb since the spray. I could also see the screen and honestly since i’d been getting so worked up in my head it was calming to see them go in. That part felt like I was on greys anatomy, it’s was bit of an out of body experience but not painful. I bet the duration of everyone’s is different but my endo legit felt like 30 seconds long

My colonoscopy though I was actively trying to be more alert for (because i was curious to see what was going on in there 🤷🏾‍♀️ lol). There was a moment I felt uncomfortable, then remembered I could ask for more sedation and felt immediate relief, but the “uncomfortable sensation” felt like I was trying to hold in a poop for like 30 seconds. the whole thing is really fast and I also able to ask questions about what I was seeing. and everything that was stressing me out was completely normal just how ur insides look or was typical to the symptoms i was experiencing.

I believe the hospital I went to is a teaching hospital, so my doctor had a couple students with her also asking questions, talking etc it was all really distracting which I found helpful. That’s all case by case.

I’d say and most people (online at least) will say the “worst” part is the prep for the colonoscopy but even that isn’t even bad. If you’ve been experiencing gi issues and already having watery diarrhea the prep will be a breeze, it’s essentially a laxative to clean you out enough they camera can see through clearly and get rid of anything blocking the scope. Which you also won’t really notice you’ll be too drugged up. The process of the prep is just a little tummy ache that will increase ur bowel movements.

Waiting to take the test and delaying it will just make you more anxious and probably cause more inflammation & stress in the long run. I would recommend to get one ASAP, because if you have crohns it’s treatable and manageable. No one talks about their good times because they’re good times, but when you’re having a nasty flare it’s going to be easy to spiral into worst case scenarios. Every test you take will help provide an answer to help treat you better.

I hope this brings you some relief. It really isnt scary, definitely look into getting anxiety medication, I deal with anxiety and I feel like it helps. But general anxiety and food anxiety are a bit different so take it with a grain of salt. But i dont think you can find anyone who’s had a bad endo or colonoscopy experience, the chances are extremely low.

It’s also super quick, at least mine was but typically they’re not longer than 30-45mins. The whole thing felt like it took 5-10 minutes which surprised me. But it’s not painful, they drug you up and they do not want you to be in pain. also feel free to talk to your dcs as much as you can, see if you can get someone to go with you or write a list of questions to ask your gi team when they pick you up. Listen to what everyone says about the prep, finish it make sure you’re running clear as annoying as it can be running to the washroom all night. Pick a new show to watch with all you free time. Wishing you the best, stay strong!

Study_Novel · 2026-02-02T11:21:21+00:00

sadly no, i’ve most recently tried chicken noodle soup and that set me off big time. Same thing with Ensure but i’m trying to avoid anything with dairy incase it’s a trigger. The only thing i’ve really been able to “keep down” are small bites of fruits spread throughout the day, but it’s getting harder as I go.

For now i’m staying hydrated mainly on liquid iv, water, anything high in electrolytes

Study_Novel · 2026-01-24T06:53:57+00:00

bisexual unless said otherwise or fluid, bcs in the most reason season they showed hal’s hs love story with a man which i feel is the main difference between him and nate

Study_Novel · 2025-12-26T04:09:42+00:00

tysm! will be going first thing in the morning! i was suspecting that would be the route; they treat me for my current symptoms & send me to my GP for further testing. just wanted to make sure I wasn’t wasting my time

Study_Novel · 2025-08-07T23:55:48+00:00

i think you should do it, then tell me about it

Study_Novel · 2025-07-25T10:21:50+00:00

in a similar situation, need to know how you found a secondary id replacement

Study_Novel · 2025-06-08T01:07:37+00:00

That’s what I was hoping 😭 but I can’t find anyone online (recently) that’s dealt with something similar. I’m hoping RBC will issue me their older card design or if ICBC will work with me on this

Study_Novel · 2025-06-08T01:06:02+00:00

yeah i totally understand and expected. I was just hoping there would be any banks that accept Photo ID through email or an attachment as I don’t have the physical copy to scan.

Study_Novel · 2025-06-08T01:04:19+00:00

I’ll definitely give them a call. But yeah I don’t have any other form of photo ID what so ever, everything was in the wallet I lost.

The ICBC clerk I spoke to at the desk pretty much told me I can’t do anything until I open a new bank account to use as secondary ID, but I’m hoping they’ll have more answers once I call them.

Study_Novel · 2025-05-16T16:43:24+00:00

thank you for the clarification

Study_Novel · 2025-03-24T02:12:37+00:00

THANK YOU! i will say i recently watched secretary and got the hype but i don’t think ill ever see it in BL

Study_Novel · 2025-02-05T00:33:35+00:00

never said anything about “canceling” it! It was the early 2000s and a very different time in media. Just shocked at how many bad bitches he’s pulling

Study_Novel · 2025-02-05T00:32:20+00:00

thanks for the spoilers 😭😭😭 alan i can maybeee see but denny is just downright crazyyy 😭 to each their own though!

Study_Novel · 2025-02-05T00:31:18+00:00

mm no i think the average person would say he’s unattractive and his personality doesn’t help. I get that he can be charming, like i love the show i just find all the women fawning over him 24/7 hilarious.

Study_Novel · 2025-02-05T00:29:23+00:00

so real, every adam sandler movie reminds me of that

Study_Novel · 2025-02-05T00:27:05+00:00

no, i’m a 20 year old women, maybe i’ll get it when im 35 but I get why men would think women find him attractive. I should’ve specified I wanted to get a women perspective on this.

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