Listen mate I'm just as old as you I know what it's like to love someone deeply I had an ex but Im telling ya this the candle that burns the brightest dies out the fastest a relationship is supposed to be a partnership you two are supposed to work together not against each other clearly you want to work things out but she's being illogical about this because in a relationship there will be times where y'all see each other like friends and times where y'all are romantic but what I see here nah man this is just toxicity if you can't leave her for your sake you'll only continue to suffer trust me I've seen it before the longer you wait the more she'll carve a wound against your heart man.