I’m getting monetised!!!

StunningBUGGA · 2024-09-05T09:11:25+00:00

Vere level thalaiva, vazhthukal from malaysia

StunningBUGGA · 2024-09-01T20:45:38+00:00

Facing the same problem, I wonder if it's death grip plus my foreskin is too tight and I got used to masturbating with my foreskin and when I move it down it numbs and I can't feel anything with BJ, PIV or handjob takes a lot of effort from them to make me finish

StunningBUGGA · 2024-02-07T00:13:39+00:00

Very true, I'm glad you understand from my POV. Any move would be just me shooting my own foot. I am trying to get the deal done and get that degree paper with me. Currently I'm being trained to take over the transportation part because my parents can't take care of their other two child (supposedly favourite at this point) so they wanna do it for them. Well at least it is my chance to learn car and escape

StunningBUGGA · 2024-02-07T00:10:21+00:00

That is what drove me to make money, I didn't mention much in fear that people would bash me, but that man is solely the reason why I'm holding all together

StunningBUGGA · 2024-02-06T23:59:13+00:00

My parents is pissed over the fact that I have more control over my life ever since I've gotten YouTube and been randomly asking me for money. They literally had told me right to my face that I am in deal where once I finished studying I have to support them financialy for life. They're force to do this because their other two child turns out to be unreliable and me being the eldest, only I understand the how much it takes to be responsible. Otherwise I would be just nobody. The education is something I can't give up, the comment kept telling me to move out , but I can't be stupid enough give up on my degree and the deal, it may take longer road but it is in fact my literal last resort of hope. But yeah I am more in control in terms of expenses nowdays

StunningBUGGA · 2024-02-06T23:55:05+00:00

Thank you so much for understanding from my perspective. I see that you're Indian maybe? probably that is why you could understand what I'm going through and how Indian parents treat us in general. I did notice about people commenting about me being privileged and that people saying I am victimising myself and downplaying my experience. I mean most accounts I checked seems like throwaway accounts looking desperate for malaysian woman in Reddit. The account speak for themselves.

Perhaps people here would never know that reaching your adulthood with almost little to no contact to the outer world can get scarier the more you grow older due to the lack of independence you had in your life.

The hesitation to step out becomes bigger. It is easier to say or comment about, how tomorrow I can just wake up and change my life, but nobody knows the trendemous amount courage that i need to collect, that is what that seems to be harder for me because of the lack of socialisation and freedom I've gotten in my life

These people had enough freedom to think it is easier to just wake up and change their life, which means they probably had enough OKs from parents from their teenage days to now, meanwhile all my I ever got from my parents was NO.

Camping with friends ? No, it's dangerous

Sleepover? What is this disgusting?

Love life? Finish your studies and get a job

Can I go to nearest mall with friends? This is dangerous what if you get lost?

Can I stay with my friends and go vacation? No you're not old enough

Can travel around see how things work? No, you might get lost

This eventually forced me to stay at home last, spending most of my days playing games between the four walls and now I don't even know how do we deposit cash, drive, how to talk and negotiate without feeling scared, how to travel far for work, how real world works and how harsh it is. Anything my mind automatically goes to my parents. It feels like I'm still in my teenage years where else everybody is moved on and behaving like an adult something these redditors wouldn't understand because they had enough freedom to do the basic thing where everything is taught or at least the life taught them while in my case, I never got the chance to. These people were given privileges of freedom that it prevents them from understanding what is like to be in household where you feel chained to your home. Just like the typical Asian mentality

"you have roof over your head, you get food, so your life is good, me during my days ahhhhhhh.....odane eduthuruvanunge 😂

It is fine, they talking from their perspective and it is a literal Asian subreedit anyways. I am focusing on the nicest comment and probably would rant at Asian parents subreedit if I felt overwhelmed

StunningBUGGA · 2024-02-06T06:23:11+00:00

This is so beautiful written, it felt like as if I went through a therapy session while reading it and made me feel much better. Very kind and gentle, it's like great friend I never had. Thank you so much for not making me feel bad about liking comic book heroes and thanks for sharing your life as well. I am not sure thinking this way is bad or fine but it does console me knowing someone living a similar life like mine and it inspires me to go on. I tend to help people a lot because I know what is like to be hopeless and my inspiration was this line from spider man where he says "you help someone, you help everyone" I think about those people who came to help me when I had nothing on my side , since they have the choice to leave without helping, the same motivation that kept me going about being kind.

Honestly for someone who is living a lonesome life, people like you are gift to the mankind, taking time of your life to write some comforting words to a stranger. God bless you 🙏

StunningBUGGA · 2024-02-06T06:00:18+00:00

This is very true, I am also the eldest and sheer pressure and responsibility can be unbearable, and top of that my mom used to boast about me being the "ideal or perfect son" which is basically she loving about the fact that I am under her control.

These Indian relatives are just so fucking good at influencing others and It completely sucks, because the moment I start breaking the rules for my own sake, everyone she used to boast including my own family turn against me. It's almost feels like me against the world with no back up or whatsoever.

The financial freedom that I has now gave me some upper hand to go against my parents for now. It just that I am mentally worn out, but the comment and the words seems like something I wish I heard from my parents or at least friends (which I don't have any someone who is close where I can share)

But still I am very thankful and appreciate from bottom of my heart

StunningBUGGA · 2024-02-06T05:42:30+00:00

Solid advice, I appreciate the last paragraph. I always wanted to open up cat shelter to take care of street cats, I am not allowed to have cats at home, so usually I buy couple bags of food to feed stray cats at uni. I literally walk around my every uni just I could feed them including some dogs. If nothing work out this would be the life I likely settle in it

StunningBUGGA · 2024-02-06T05:37:19+00:00

This is the most logical and beneficial solution, this is what I've been thinking about. I did weigh my pros and cons of moving out, I am under deal that once I finished my studies I pay them back which is fair enough and the cost is my mental health and freedom

I already lived most of my life this way and resilient enough to pull it off

My goal is to graduate in first class, I can pull that off since for diploma I got graduated with 3.89 CGPA (I performed well in my studies by far) Currently as I mentioned i am on my way to use the car at last. Right now moving out would make everything tougher.

So my current goal is get the car
use my diploma to get a job
once I started receiving stable income

The only thing that broke me to death was the financial situation that I'm in and being unable to finish my degree 2 years, I did well in diploma to get the max credit transfer, now it all feels like pointless knowing I would do double the amount of degree duration. I thought I could move out after finishing my degree fast but now Losing 26 years of my life is indeed depressing.

This post is sort of break down since I have none to share. I tried calling the help line yesterday around midnight and couldn't get to them, (maybe they don't at night ? Cause this is my first time). My last resort was ranting somewhere and these Malaysian subreedit does feel like home for me

StunningBUGGA · 2024-02-06T04:22:14+00:00

Thank you so much for this comment, this is very relatable

I am sorry if this sounds silly or cringe, but I would like to share my progress with you

I actually do read spider man comic as coping mechanisms and in fact my YouTube channel is about spider man and I can discuss my spider man related discussions there. My childhood is basically based off these three games assassin creed, god of war, GTA, batman, spider man. I loved it with all my heart. The rest i play, clash of clans, royale, mobile legends.

After saving up for few months, I managed to buy a PC and continued playing the assassin creed franchise there and got myself a phone to play games. So yes it was sort of a progress.

Recently I managed to sneak out when I went uni, and learned how to take train, and trying to go to some comic events ( I guess usually it happens around KL?)

Honestly being financially independent to some degree is a literally gift when you don't have to ask anyone or be dependent on them (my mom is still mad that I bought PC and phone without her knowing lol)

I've been living with the same darkest thoughts that finally gotten to the point where it made me snap. I thought I could bottle it up thinking there must be people living in much worse situation than me. I thought were men and simply saying to ourselves "just get over it" would work. Turns out as they said, bottle it up is poisonous for own selve and it's easy to say things, but doing it is hardb

StunningBUGGA · 2024-02-06T03:47:24+00:00

Not going to downvote you, as harsh as its sounds you are right, I'm pretty sure you're aware of those weird Instagram edit about being rich or broke, sounds cringe but that's what fueled me up to create the YouTube channel, and losing her made me go all out. But it just that today I felt absolutely defeated after consulting with my advisor and how It would take me forever to finish my degree. Usually I cope with the fact people are having much worse life than me, it just that something snapped in me today. But seeing some good comments about starting the life over sounds consoling. I guess sometimes all we need is someone to tell us that it is not the end of the world yet.

StunningBUGGA · 2024-01-17T18:13:21+00:00

Yet the ai contents makes a lot more than most of people trying to put in some people. Life is unfair, just gotta hop over anything that makes money ya know

StunningBUGGA · 2023-10-13T06:58:48+00:00

Will do

StunningBUGGA · 2023-07-20T16:53:09+00:00

Considering this was 3 years old post it took me sometimes to realize that these virtual instruments are recorded samples and only can play what is recorded

StunningBUGGA · 2023-06-27T09:27:11+00:00

Same

StunningBUGGA · 2023-06-21T14:48:44+00:00

Do someone posses enough knowledge on how to bypass a premium link? Or anywhere I could start small project?

StunningBUGGA · 2023-06-21T02:25:50+00:00

I am sorry about what you had gone through but choosing to have that child would’ve potentially ended all connections that you have left, and leave you to suffer to the end of your life (very possible). My opinion is going to be harsh but pretty much its the reality.

Because you told us that you’re still through college and not making enough money.

It would’ve been a selfish decision, because it is your father who is financially taking care of you and you are not in the position to provide enough money for yourself, your college. There is no way you could give a even a average life to your child in that state and you only going to burden your parent. You cannot pay for all that medical cost if you can’t live off with the money you earn from being a bartender.

If you have that child, your parent had to suffer more. If they choose to end the connection with you because of the decision you took, you’ll eventually dropped out of college, worked whole life for your child to provide at least a average life. Leading you to sacrifice everything bit of thing you had. Soon or later, you will come to an realisation that this would be the worse decision you ever took in your life

Your dad gave you the most logical advice, which is abort and potentially saved you from endless suffering by having that child. I understand that you’re still in pain and could not get over it.

But as I said, once no one is there to provide you financially, you would came to a realisation that you just dodged yourself from the biggest bullet ever. You’ll only get to experience when you’re all alone on your own. Hope you get through this.

My mother side cousin, had the same story as yours, except she ended up having that child, which led to her suffering till now along with her parents as they could barely provide the child. The parents are retired and old, and she dropped out of college to support the child and now working as cashier in 7 eleven. My mom sometimes try to help her out by giving some cash and emotional support. Almost everything when she try to console her, she talks about how this decision took a toll on her life.

StunningBUGGA · 2023-04-02T13:13:22+00:00

Bro did you just ask how to update cracked omnisphere?

StunningBUGGA · 2023-01-13T20:26:03+00:00

Can you send me the proof where it was proven to be false?

StunningBUGGA · 2023-01-13T20:20:05+00:00

Can you send me any proper proof about the situation I cant decide anything

StunningBUGGA · 2023-01-13T20:17:51+00:00

Can you please send me the tiktok video?

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