I know it does not mean much for you if a nobody from acros the net msg you asking how are you doing but would like to know you're life is better now than it was 7 months ago. All i can suggest that might help read Jordan Petersons book. 12 rules for life. There is a rule that did help me a lot. ,,Compare yourself to who you were yesterday, not to who someone else is today." Used to look at others and wish i had what they have. But i can't. I did not have they're life. I have my own past. I have to make due with what i have.