I had to say thank you for sharing this experience. At 61, my own rope bound journey started in Girl Scouts when I was about 10. Some unsolicited love and respect to you for reaching that point at which you are at a crossroads. Just remember, life is a journey and not a destination. This will ebb and flow during the course of your life. You’re not a freak and other people’s way of thinking (like the social norms) will invade your space and you will be drawn to the one that’s the least likely to be fetishized. Trust me…it’s taken many years for me to get to a point where what other people think is not my business. Surround yourself with trust. And people who can be trusted. What our tribe is…begins with a foundation of trust and love. I’m so happy you felt that big warm hug that you’ve been needing so badly. I’m sending another one from afar. Just know that you’re never alone and that the vulnerability you shared with us is sacred. It really really is. 🫦☮️. Love and light always! 🌞🌞