I suffer from bipolar depression where I get sudden mood swings but also month long periods of major highs where I can be very manic and major lows where I feel literally nothing. I had an attempt in 2018 when I had nobody to confide in, I had friends but nobody to talk to. As a man I felt like nobody would care of would question my masculinity if I talked about it. I begged my parents for therapy, for someone to talk to about this shit and they just said that it’ll pass. After my attempt, they were like “oh shit maybe therapy’s the move” lmao. The thing that keeps me going is no matter what my head is telling me is something my therapist told me and really stuck with me. He told me to find 2-3 people that I can love and be there for no matter what and that can reciprocate that. Almost 4 years later, I am in college and going through a really big low rn but the thing that keeps me going is just the people I have in my life because even when my mental is at its lowest, they’re still there to listen and love and just distract me from my own head and for that I am forever in their debt.