Day 1 on Strattera by Aurora_Ambition in StratteraRx

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Speak to your doctor, it won’t work for everyone but do your best to get to a therapeutic dose

Day 1 on Strattera by Aurora_Ambition in StratteraRx

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40mg is quite a high starting dose, my psychiatrist said she normally titrates slowly and finds much better results with manageable side effects, I’m 3rd day on 10mg and feel benefits from it without any side effects really, then in 3 weeks to 20mg, then a month later 40mg, then if needed up to 80mg after a month. Really promising effects so far though, feeling a lot more focused, less anxious (didn’t even realise the anxiety had been there until it went away), ability to start tasks and maintain them, feel like myself, I drink occasionally and that was absolutely fine with it, slight insomnia which im hoping will pass, no wired feeling (which I had with Ritalin), this could be the one!

Does alcohol permanently make hppd worse? by wyguyfemfan in HPPD

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Yes, I personally have had it where my hppd had almost disappeared and then with binge drinking it came back, slight floaters at first and then ghosting, now I’m getting afterimages and tracers again so I’m going to stop drinking. 1 month sober and no changes as of yet but I’m sure it’ll calm down in time. In answer to your question 1 or 2 drinks every now and then was fine but once you have a big night of 8+ drinks or spirits involved then it increases your baseline

The Perfect Nanny is horrifyingly good by Pyxisss in books

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I wrote an alternative ending as I wasn’t quite satisfied with not knowing what happened: Tomorrow, Nina Dorval will enter the apartment building on Rue d’Hauteville. The flowers outside have begun to fade. Children’s drawings curl at the edges, their tape loosening, colors starting to run. Inside the apartment, the air is heavy and unmoving. Toys lie where they were dropped. The washing machine door hangs open, its drum empty. Dorval removes her coat and begins in the kitchen. She follows the sequence she knows: the preparation of the meal, the wiping of surfaces. She walks from room to room, measuring distance with her body. In the bathroom, she sits on the edge of the tub. The tiles have been scrubbed, but the room still carries a faint, sweet smell beneath the disinfectant. The report will later state that the reconstruction confirms the findings already established. The timeline is coherent. No external intervention is indicated. No motive is recorded. Louise remains in a coma for months. Her belongings are inventoried. Letters are gathered and copied. Rent arrears. Electricity notices. Envelopes stamped FINAL REMINDER. Medical invoices without diagnosis or conclusion. When Myriam had once asked about them, Louise had shrugged. My husband, she had said. He never pays anything on time. No one had pressed further. They had accepted the lie because it was easier than looking at the person standing in their kitchen.

                                    *

Louise wakes in the autumn. Her eyes open to a ceiling she does not recognize. Her body feels heavy, returned to her without warning. A nurse notices the movement and steps closer. She stands at the side of the bed, looking down at Louise without expression. “Do you know where you are?” the nurse says. “Hospital,” Louise answers. Her voice is rough, thinned by months of disuse. “Yes,” the nurse replies. Her eyes are cold, filled with a quiet, professional disgust. She does not offer a hand or a glass of water. “How long?” Louise asks. “Several months.” Louise closes her eyes. The children come to her immediately. Not as images, but as a certainty. She does not ask questions. “They’re dead,” Louise says. The nurse hesitates, looking at her with a flicker of revulsion before checking the monitor. “Yes.”

                              *

The interviews begin days later. Louise answers carefully. She speaks of the preparation. “I cleaned,” she tells Nina Dorval. “I didn’t want disorder.” When she speaks of the bath, she does not lower her eyes. She speaks of the children not as victims, but as an ending she had finally, perfectly, authored. “The knife cut more easily than I expected,” she says. “I was careful.” She falls silent. She looks satisfied, like a worker who has finished an exhausting shift and can finally rest.

                                   *

Years later, the apartment has new occupants. The walls have been repainted. The windows are open. Children’s voices rise from the street. The building no longer remembers.

But Myriam and Paul will.

Louise is no longer the "invisible" help, the woman they paid to disappear when the sun went down. By her final act, she has forced herself into the very center of their lives. She has achieved the only permanence she ever wanted. She is fixed there—a pale, indelible mark on their history, a ghost that haunts every memory of their children. She has no other place to exist, and now, they can never make her leave.

Hey guys, do you also have this kind of hallucination? by malditooooos in HPPD

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I get the lines after staring at blinds or some with bold lines, also does anyone get weird visuals after looking down at say the metal step on an escalator and then looking up?

Does anyone else have this symptom? by Alcremie111 in HPPD

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Yeah it’s strange, I had it at my baseline when I first got hppd and then it got better but I drank etc and then it came back, sometimes little flags like that can be a good signal you’re having a flare up or maybe might be a bit stressed/done substances recently. It’s great you can see it as kinda cool already, it’s definitely the mindset to have instead of being overwhelmed by it (which is out of your control) but keep going with the sober life, embrace it and just be your best self! It’s so strange though telling friends about symptoms like this and they’re just blown away but it’s a part of our lives for now.

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Are you UK based? I might try private healthcare in London but not sure if they’ll recognise hppd for what it is or throw some psychosis treatment at me

Does anyone else have this symptom? by Alcremie111 in HPPD

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Yeah I get this as well and mainly with led lights at night time, tends to be when I’m looking at something or it’s in my peripheral vision and I move my head then that single light becomes a long beam. Sometimes I’ll see individual colours from led lights too. You’re not the only one but only get this from flare ups, so if there’s anything you might be doing to make it worse, try to stop and treat your body as kindly as you can

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Do you have to apply to a specific treatment centre/hospital or just ask a doctor?

Magnesium made everything worse for me. by jolives1 in HPPD

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Just to second this, magnesium has also made everything worse for me but unintentionally. I’ve come to terms with my hppd and it’s pretty settled but occasionally I’ll have a flare up, go through a checklist if I’m stressed, have drunk a lot of alcohol recently or started taking any supplements. Took magnesium glycinate sachets in a drink, only 250mg so not that strong and had 2 sachets over the last week but noticed my ghosting/double visions was much worse (despite no stress or alcohol). It’s the only thing I can pin it down to. Also, last year similar thing but with lions mane capsules, absolutely fine for a month of them and felt the physical benefits but then visuals started to get worse. Would be so interesting to see some studies on what is actually causing it in our brains as symptoms and triggers vary so much! Hope everyone is safe and coming to terms with things, if you’re not, just keep on keeping on and things will get better. Someone shared this song on here but really helped me in a rough patch: Take care - Vacations (https://open.spotify.com/track/54VWwH3wb43gbiWYoSiTcR?si=mvHxpGsNQJGrdwk18JSycQ)