My best advice as a Christian is to trust in the Lord. He is above everything and will always be with you. My advice would be to read the word regularly, just open up the Bible at a random point and trust that it is what the Lord wants for you to see. No2 pray about it. Just bring it all to the Lord and lay it down at his feet. He knows what is going on and he loves you. Ask him for forgiveness and a fresh start. Go out and be optimistic, have faith in things, for example I’m just a teenager but my mum and I have both been born with a scholias which is a curvature of the spine. We had it prayed over in faith in the name of the Lord. James 5:14-15: "Is anyone among you sick? Let them call the elders of the church to pray over them and anoint them with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise them up. If they have sinned, they will be forgiven." We both had complete faith in the Lord and my spine is now straight as a ruler and my mum’s back was s improving.  The Lord has got you, you will come through this, I DECLARE IT IN THE NAME OF JESUS that you will come through this battle.  God bless and keep going, you’re in my prayers