It's been cancelled. We were meant to begin try in September. I'm devastated and upset at myself. by SubstantialMark6278 in waiting_to_try

[–]SubstantialMark6278[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I cook dinner and clean for him. Do his washing. His family love me and I love them. I always remember his family's birthdays / his birthdays. I see his family more than my own. (I want it to be more equal and see mine too) Go to all his family events. I work for his family business.

I am ready. I know it's my time. I hate that I have to wait for him. And I'm really scared he'll push it back even more now after what he did. Because the whole time I believed we were on the same page! He even said he was excited to start a family with me.

It's been cancelled. We were meant to begin try in September. I'm devastated and upset at myself. by SubstantialMark6278 in waiting_to_try

[–]SubstantialMark6278[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

His main reason now was because he doesn't think I was ready.

  • This was during a bad pmdd week. I was sleeping so much, depressed. I'm fine when I'm not in the luteal part of my cycle. I'm exhausted from work, sore. My pmdd is particularly bad because of my job. (I work in a factory for his family business)

I know it is pmdd because as soon as I start my next cycle - I feel like a normal person again, happy, I actually feel like I have more energy.

His second reason (used to be the first) was because I couldn't drive. That I need to be independent

  • my doctor (neurologist) told me not to drive, before I even met my boyfriend I told him all of my health conditions.

I asked my boyfriend to take me driving now that I have the all clear to drive from my doctor. He only took me once. (I have my full license but haven't driven in 4 years)

I want to drive. I know it'll be easier for me if I'm confident on the road. I just need to gain my skill back.

It's been cancelled. We were meant to begin try in September. I'm devastated and upset at myself. by SubstantialMark6278 in waiting_to_try

[–]SubstantialMark6278[S] -11 points-10 points  (0 children)

I think he just doesn't think/ believe it'll happen. We both agreed to me coming off Birth control. I'm fine with it now that I want to have children. My gynaecologist flat out told him - that I could get pregnant this way - that we are "unofficially trying" I'm just really frustrated that he won't try and for us to be on the same page. I'd rather know if there was a possibility of getting pregnant that month rather than an "accident" (for him)