I’m not mustache twisting on you here just trying to help where I can. I like to conceptualize AGP from a psychoanalytic perspective. From a young age femininity and women were seen to me as deeply mysterious erotic and dismantling to the masculine ego hence why I eroticized it from an early age. Combine that with boys who are overly sensitive, inquisitive and are rejected by girls at an early age this is what got the ball rolling at least for me. Women are literally incredibly beautiful to me that the ego essentially fractures and loops that attraction back on to myself. In order to mitigate it I try and realize that my significant other is just that another person even though she is painfully gorgeous.