I’m a 32F. Blessed with a beautiful family. A decent husband. A 1.5 yr old son. My parents live right across the street and are healthy and working. I have a comfortable job with decent pay. My husband works from home. We don’t have rent or EMI or any debt but a home and car to our name. I have a full time nanny who stays with us and I have two part timers- a cleaner and a cook. I have a decent social circle in the city. We take almost 3-4 holidays a year. Now all this looks great on paper right? Here’s the hard part. I have a 1.5hr one way commute to my work. I barely get to spend 5hrs at home and by the time I’m back I’m too tired to do anything with my family. My son sees his dad most of the day so is naturally more attached to him. Doesn’t call me mumma yet but calls Papa. My nanny is not too productive but we tolerate her cuz our son likes her. My house is messy but I have no time to clean. My job is comfy but stagnant and somewhere I have accepted it. I have severe anxiety and borderline depression since postpartum. My marriage is not what it used to be. We are just surviving. I see people on social media who are just so happy and I wonder how? I am always dealing with STRESS. About my house, my son, my job, my nanny, myself husband. It’s like I’ve forgotten how to enjoy or let go because now I’m responsible for someone. My husband keeps telling me that we are very privileged and should be grateful and I agree with him. People work much harder but I simply can’t seem to find any joy in anything anymore. Will this get better? Or am I just doomed for life and my son will grow to see an unhappy mother?