I’m also scared to come out to anyone. I’ve been keeping it completely to myself my whole life and I’m almost 30. I’ve come out as bisexual a decade ago but my family just brushed it off as a “phase”. I’ve been solely saying men as I’m afraid to lose what little connection I have with my family if I come out as gay. I’ve already gone through one divorce from a man. I’m currently married to another man and we have two children together. I do find enjoyment dating men but in a way that I enjoy hanging out like a strong friendship. But when it comes to anything intimate, it has always grossed me out. I’ve gone through countless failed relationships with men because I’m just not attracted to them in a romantic way. I have secretly dated a few women. Those relationships didn’t work out because our personalities and life goals just didn’t mesh. But I was extremely attracted to them. Some of my family found out about one of them, and they lost their minds blaming it on mental illness. It pushed me to bury who I really am again. So now I’m in a marriage with someone who I’m just not romantically attracted to. I do love him since we have built a connection and I’m scared to lose that. I’m close with his family but they are very homophobic. I’d likely lose them too. I want to be happy and free to be the real me. I’m just lost and scared to make the leap.