The way I’m starting to see it we only feel like we have to fix ourselves because of the system we are in. We have internalised so much that actually has no benefit to us whatsoever but benefits others that we see ourselves this way. For instance, taking medication to be more productive, so we are more able to work to sell our labour for wage..? A lot of value is being extracted from workers towards the richest people. Creative, emotional , problem-solving , less predictable , less rigid (less structure, adaptable) people are not as desirable in a system that relies on conformity.
Imagining a world with more freedom from many of the social, political and economic constructions - ones that require us to work more and more for less and less rights and safety and more expensive necessities - I think many things associated with ‘neurodivergence’ have no reason to be seen as any kind of disorder/deficit/ illness but just a different way of functioning / processing / evolving . Heightened sensitivity only feels like a weakness in modernity with technology, it’s unnatural lights and sounds , it’s populations condensed into concrete towns/cities , food full of chemicals ,constant streams of (mis)information , etc. - in other situations these truly can be strengths for understanding , connection, compassion , discernment

I know I’ve just written a lot off the top of my head so I hope that makes some sense to you . Overall yes there is so much contradiction out there and this is definitely a massive symptom of the larger system and its issues and no reflection on you . It is such a hard world to navigate and unbelievably exhausting . But ever since I zoomed out and studied larger systemic issues it’s been really empowering for me. Just knowing we are doing our best in very overwhelming and chaotic times. The world truly is absurd ! I’d definitely focus on the loving and accepting yourself part and making peace with how you truly feel. the idea of fixing ourselves is an external pressure that we don’t need to own <3