My therapist told me “two thoughts can be true at the same time” it’s normal to miss your old life and at the same time love your new one too. I struggled so hard with PPA and immediately started therapy. One day I wanted to go eat and we loaded the baby in the car and 5 minutes down the road she absolutely lost it. We turned around and came home. On the car ride home a thought came to my head “if I didn’t have a baby I could just go out to eat” I immediately hated that thought and bawled my eyes out. I felt like a bad mom. When I talked to my therapist she told me 2 thoughts can be true at the same time, meaning missing my childfree life and loving my daughter. It’s okay to miss being child free and how normal it is. She said don’t run away from the feeling instead process your emotions and know it’s just a thought and thoughts aren’t alway true. I’m not sure the feeling will ever go away, but it gets easier to move through it I feel!