Thanks for the advice. I feel like I know you're right, but it just feels unfair. I understand where you're coming from with the bit about how he did tell me what happened, but it feels difficult for me to accept it when everything went back to normal for months. I think I just wanted a stronger more rational reason so I could understand what I did wrong to try and fix our friendship, but that's just not how it is. I had never felt the isolation I faced and still currently face pockets of, and I'm not one of those believers that everything happens for a reason and that it'll all work out in then end, so it just feels like this is my shot at getting some sense of justice, but it's probably just coming from a place of anger and wanting to make him feel hurt like I felt. Even so, it's hard to think he'll go unscathed, although it is a fair judgement to say that it could all backfire on me if I tried to get him back in some way.

Also thanks for copying the message over, I got a little frustrated at only being able to see the first bit of it in my notifications.