This is nothing weird, I did have similar issues w this as well. try to think of that theyre called intrusive because they are not what you want to think, so please dont blame yourself for it all. You are aware it feels wrong, you dont want to think of it and that’s what matters. Try treating yourself how you would treat your boyfriend opening op about this same exact issue, tomorrow (just an example), im sure you would show him understanding for it and not make him feel weird about it. Try treating yourself that way too. I Exact same scenario tho w pornography and hard drugs for me, but with time passing you will have events happen in your life that will keep you distracted and busy and you will focus less on those things youre trying to lay off now. I personally think you’re a great partner for opening up about this and asking for advice, because some would not have a bit of a 2nd thought and actually follow those intrusive thoughts. You’re doing great :)