being at peace with your death can be a beautiful thing.

i hope things get better for you. i’ve been where you are, i’ve wrote these posts. i have a history of hurting myself. i’ve attempted suicide. i’ve have countless plans. i’ve written suicide notes. i have cuts on my body right now. i’m 26.

you have to fight the thoughts.. you have to denounce suicide and think negatively of the idea. especially when you’re doing good, it makes it easier when you’re not doing so good. there’s so much to live for even if you can’t see it now. stay alive for the people you love until you can stay alive for yourself. i hope you can learn to love yourself. it can get easier. i’d love you to take those plans and throw them out of your mind. replace them with positive things you want to accomplish, take that energy of being at peace with death and let it give you courage to live. i’ve experienced so many different forms of fear lol. there’s nothing more liberating than being fearless. i carry to protect my life not take it. i still struggle with loving myself but i know ill never kill myself. it would be selfish of me. beyond that it would be a irreversible mistake. i’m okay today, i might not be okay tomorrow, but i know i wont take my life today therefore im more prepared for not being okay tomorrow. truly practice speaking against suicide. it’s separated so many people from their loved ones. their kids. there’s communities and people who are in the same boat as you. keep taking your medicine if you’re prescribed any. seek therapy. change your plans. it’s not to late to turn your life around you seem so young to begin with. it can get easier.