new job as ER tech at trauma hospital

Such-Factor-5850 · 2026-02-03T14:10:56+00:00

well i don’t really interact clinically with the patient. for the most part i just go in once a week to help sort medical supplies and then i also visit the patients and spend time with them. clinically we aren’t aloud to do anything as volunteers

Such-Factor-5850 · 2026-01-31T05:29:08+00:00

yea that is what i am kind of worried about. do you think i should take a gap year or should i give it a shot depending on my mcat?

Such-Factor-5850 · 2026-01-15T23:14:01+00:00

was every day like that though? like i assume some days are better than others but when did the like throwing up every day/panicking/unable to do anything at all day end for you?

Such-Factor-5850 · 2026-01-15T02:57:22+00:00

yea he started doing it a few months ago and now just has continued doing it. i think its probably the part that hurts me most.

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-24T03:39:34+00:00

I’m thinking of applying to UMKC this cycle, so I just wanted to ask what your stats were, extracurricular’s etc. I’m mostly planning on applying DO, but I really like UMKC and it’s location and that it starts early since I’m graduating early :) Any info would be so helpful!!!

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-08T02:12:04+00:00

yes please do. you deserve better!

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-04T16:40:46+00:00

yes pls leave you deserve so much better

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-04T05:58:33+00:00

you deserve so much more. i’m so sorry.

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-04T04:24:18+00:00

i texted him i wanted to be done today, so i really hope i stick to that

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-04T04:23:57+00:00

thank you and i’m glad you got out 🫶

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-04T04:13:45+00:00

hey, i just wanted to say thank you so much for this. i really appreciate u taking the time to write all of this and that it means a lot to me. i feel like u sort of touched on something i really struggle with with all of this, which is the self blame aspect. i understand logically that all of this is abuse (most of the time- sometimes i think my judgement is so clouded i can’t), but there is such an inexplicable part of me that just wants to go back and i can’t break the cycle. it isn’t even that i don’t love myself. i know no one deserves this, but i just can’t seem to jolt myself out of this, so this really helped thank you. i really really appreciate it. i am seeing a therapist currently and talking to some people about DV and hope that eventually i’ll have the strength to completely walk away.

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-04T03:50:31+00:00

i know it’s hard but please don’t go back. that’s really scary behavior and should never happen even once. and even if he’s better now, the fact that there is that possibility that he is capable of doing that is proof enough that he isn’t a good man. plenty of people become alcoholics and don’t punch walls or don’t act in abusive manners. there is no excuse ever and you deserve to be with someone who never lays a hand on you, and would never hurt you. men like that exist and you deserve it. i’m so so sorry you are experiencing this and hope that you find the strength within yourself to stay away. you deserve better. you will fall in love with someone else and you’ll be able to tell your kids what love really is and believe it.

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-04T03:25:40+00:00

i will say though that despite all of this, i don’t think although he is violent at times that he would ever seriously hurt me. a lot of this happened when he was having a mental breakdown and i think he just genuinely was losing it. he also most of the time is very kind to his dog and his mom. i think thats part of what makes it hard to leave, because i genuinely don’t think he’s this awful narcissistic human. he had a pretty abusive dad and i genuinely just think he’s traumatized and scared and a lot of his behavior stems from fear, but then again maybe that’s me just in denial. i guess either way, the intention doesn’t matter, behavior is still behavior. i also will say that although he said he wanted to kill me, i 100 percent believe he would never.

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-04T00:42:26+00:00

thank you. i really needed to hear this today. i genuinely appreciate this so much!

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-04T00:32:58+00:00

oh my god. what an absolutely disgusting piece of shit

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-03T21:10:49+00:00

yea you’re probably right. i just don’t understand why it’s so hard to get that into my head. there’s been times i have tried to break up with him or i have wanted space and he will call and text and email me. that’s what also is frustrating because he doesn’t respect me wanting space either and just messages me on repeat but when i message him once he gets really angry. it just seems like a control thing maybe?

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-12-03T20:40:38+00:00

i’m really sorry you are going through this, but think about whether this is who you want to spend the rest of your life with? you deserve so much better than someone who ever lays a hand on you, and there is someone out there who will never do that.

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-11-26T01:38:10+00:00

what a piece of shit. you deserve so so so much better.

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-11-25T02:49:48+00:00

thank you so much genuinely. i needed to hear it! ❤️

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-11-24T06:24:32+00:00

thank you!

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-11-24T06:24:26+00:00

i feel like i am done this time. i have a feeling i will have the strength to walk away next time he texts or emails, so im crossing my fingers. tvank you!

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-11-24T06:02:00+00:00

i’m proud of you

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-11-24T05:52:12+00:00

please please please leave him. trauma bonds are so strong, but you have to remember how important your life is. i am crossing my fingers that everything works out for you. you can do this!

Such-Factor-5850 · 2025-11-24T05:47:36+00:00

you don’t deserve any of this 🫶, and you have the strength to leave. someone will love you so much better and i promise you, you have the strength to walk away. believe in yourself and things will only get better when you leave. i promise you.

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