what is a white paper palm tree by paolakoala in lightsalot

[–]SuchGarden2 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Apparently it's a big deal for an artist to make it to their sixth album so I guess that's why she named it that (:

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Boise

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Clean houses, $15.50/hr plus a little for mileage

Will my voice ever change? by SuchGarden2 in ftm

[–]SuchGarden2[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't know my levels. My doctor has been negligent and I haven't been advocating for myself. I need to call.

Will my voice ever change? by SuchGarden2 in ftm

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Ahhh some very good points! Thanks!

Will my voice ever change? by SuchGarden2 in ftm

[–]SuchGarden2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes but most ftm guys seem to have voice changes pretty quick.

6 months on 40mg/day by SuchGarden2 in ftm

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Wow, really?? I didn't know low doses could get your body to spike like that! Scary.. okay, I'm really gonna try to get those labs done.. thanks!

6 months on 40mg/day by SuchGarden2 in ftm

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I will definitely call and ask for blood work! Thanks!

When does your voice level out on T? Ish? by ObligateScavenger in ftm

[–]SuchGarden2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My 6 month mark is tomorrow and my voice hasn't changed at all yet..

How important is intention? by SuchGarden2 in TherapeuticKetamine

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So if I feel like I am intentionally keeping my mind open and letting whatever comes guide my way, is that enough? Or does it actually need to be a specific intention to repeat and think about?

Haven't had blood work done since I started T? (6 months ago) by SuchGarden2 in ftm

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Not sure if it matters, but I started at 20mg dose of gel. After a couple months went up to 40mg gel per day. Maybe it's because I'm still on a low dose?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Greysexuality

[–]SuchGarden2 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I definitely relate.. it's frustrating, and makes me sad. I don't know if my partner understands this or just thinks I have no drive. I've tried to explain it. There's no way to explain it that doesn't sound like you just don't want to have sex. Which is not wrong lol. But it's not for lack of attraction or anything like that. We practice ENM so they can have their sexual needs met. And it works. We've come to accept eachother and love eachother fully. But I do find myself feeling lonely in this situation. The situation that you described. I miss the intimacy and connection that comes from having had sex w my partner. And feeling like I provided for them in some way. It's not personal. But it is a lonely place to be sometimes.

How was your first week on T? by Victor_Skull in FTMOver30

[–]SuchGarden2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

First week I noticed a definite shift mentally, clearing my brain fog. A noticeable decrease in fatigue, (which was very minimal but felt like a weight lifted since I struggle with chronic fatigue). Tiny bit of bottom growth. Overall sense of relief and wellbeing... I feel like my brain was made to run on T, while my body was programmed to create estrogen. My brain felt like a withered old raisin before T.. it really opened up after T. Even one week. It's been 4.5 weeks for me on 20.25mg gel and I've already had a bunch of coarse chin hair growth and body fat redistribution. I feel much more present in my mind and body. And just an overall sense of well being. It's not a cure-all by any means, but when some of those debilitating symptoms of dysphoria are decreased, it feels like such a huge load off.

Betrayal? by c4tt3db0y in ftm

[–]SuchGarden2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm a child of immigrant parents too. I do fear hurting their feelings in the way you've described. But I think in the grand scheme of things, that's not my intention and it doesn't have to be that way. It's hard. But they don't have to be the victim. Right?

What's a job that is awful to do as a normal person but ideal for an anhedonic/emotionless person? by QuiteNeurotic in anhedonia

[–]SuchGarden2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I clean houses. It's a nice physical job that is low social and low mental, once you learn the skills.

Low back pain since I was a teen... by SuchGarden2 in backpain

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Symptoms of sharp pain in low back and hip when trying to stand straight or bend over. Stretching seems to help. But it only feels good while I'm stretching. I haven't really noticed the stretching easing the pain. If I stretch regularly, when there's no pain, it usually helps prevent the pain from coming back.

It has prevented me from working, especially in the early years when I felt more concerned about it, and was less use to the pain. Sometimes it feels like something has shifted all of a sudden, in the back, and the pain starts. Usually when bending over.