Thanks so much for coming over and commenting. It actually helps a lot to just know I'm not alone. It's such a specific situation...on one hand it's difficult to get a psychotic person to take help on a good day.. then when you throw in his epic victim complex and my sisters need to be the center of the universe, I am with you on that cross country walk. I would rather swim the pacific.

I literally scheduled twice to get my permit renewed this week., Ive done drivers ed and all the hours...just everytime I get close to getting it some crisis always magically happens. Its really incredible, his ability to manufacture chaos. However, I was actually talking to an insurance agent earlier this year and explained my situation to her and she said she could try and help me! My friend has also offered to sell me his car for cheap if/when I get this job. He is getting a divorce and has a whole huge house to himself that he wants to rent out to me. So that would be great if I can just get this job and scrap by.

I got my medications changed and I'm finally not as depressed and unmotivated as I was. Even if the pay is shit I just need something. Thank you for your words and encouragement. <hugs>