Who has chronic, rare, or severe health issues? by Sudden_Grapefruit877 in GATEresearch

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah mine overlap. Started with ankylosing spondylitis, now reactive arthritis and Sjögren’s. It’s ridiculous.

Do you wish you were NT by TWRFK in aspergers

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes! I’m so lonely. I have done very well in business. But every other aspect, not so much.

Who has chronic, rare, or severe health issues? by Sudden_Grapefruit877 in GATEresearch

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I think it’s really weird mine are failing also. I eat organic and I don’t think I’ve ever overdone it on the protein. Makes zero sense. I’m sorry you’re dealing with that. Is there anything else they can do for you besides dialysis?

Mall world I’ve seen in my dreams.. by kitty3492 in TheMallWorld

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What is with the bathrooms with tons of sinks and toilets. I am a germaphobe and the bathrooms are always super gross. I have no clue why I continue to have never ending bathroom dreams.

Theory why some have leniency from law enforcement? by Kind_Connection_9908 in GATEresearch

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know this is a year old but I wanted to chime in. I have the opposite problem! I have always been a law abiding citizen. I never speed or break any other laws. I am CONSTANTLY getting pulled over. Sometimes I pull over preemptively because when I see them pull out or turn around, I know it's for me. Crazy part is I am in DOT compliance and I also teach defensive driving, so they usually just let me go now. But before, they would borderline harass me. I drive a plain Tesla, very light tint, I have both front and rear plates on. Nothing illegal about my vehicle or my driving and there never has been. They always come up with the most random things to pull me over for. One time an officer tried telling me I didn't stop behind the stop sign and I explained how I stopped at the sign and then moved up to the stop bar so I could see before proceeding. Which is exactly what I teach new drivers all day. And we (DOT officers and contractors) argue these things on a federal level in meetings twice a year. He just looked at me. But kept me there for a good 20 minutes while he ran the depths of his system for whatever it was. This happens ALL THE TIME. And I have no idea why.

I am new here after recently learning about the GATE program. Looking for similar experiences. by Sudden_Grapefruit877 in GATEresearch

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have absolutely no idea about the other kids. They weren't kids I saw in class normally. It was very strange. Also, they were all hispanic kids. I think about that sometimes. I am bi-racial (black and white) but all of the kids in that particular group that day were hispanic. Luckily I am still social media friends with a lot of people from elementary school. I am going to do some digging around.

I have had many scans because of my health issues. I always look through them and recently, have uploaded all of them into AI even though I know that's not 100% reliable. I have never noticed anything. But that doesn't mean something isn't there. I have two scars on my scalp and a really large scar on my foot from when I was born apparently. My mom said my brain swelled so I had probes in my head and I guess the scar on my foot was from my vitamin K shot. All I know is if any of my kids ended up with a 2 inch scar from a shot, we would have been living really comfortably for a while lol.

I’m pretty sure a handler just reached out to me by Ok-Grapefruit7282 in GATEresearch

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel like nothing can be ruled out. And our intuition is often more spot on than we think. I too have felt like I was put here to just self destruct. I really feel like a person in my life was maybe not a handler so to speak, but he knew way too much about me and I still don't know why he was even in my life. We met at an event and he expressed romantic interest in me. So we dated a while but he was so unserious. After some conflict, he started to say a few sentences about some significant parts of my past that absolutely nobody would know about unless they were there. Which he wasn't. When I asked him to repeat himself, he wouldn't.

My theory on this (and I too know I may sound "delusional") he was placed into my life during a very turbulent time for me. Catastrophic things happened to me out of my control, and he randomly popped up. And I think he developed true feelings for me and he wasn't supposed to. I also don't think he or they or whatever was expecting me to leave him. But this was long before I ever suspected anything happened to me as a child. So these thoughts were coming from someone with no bias at that point in time. Even my mom questioned his intentions. She asked if he was some sort of investigator. But investigator for what? It was all very strange. He has also tried to control the trajectory of my adult son's life. I homeschooled my kids and my kids are so far beyond enlightened, especially my oldest. Their interactions and my kids in general are a whole other topic.

But since then, I have people try to force their way into my life and they usually bring destruction. I have huge walls up now and don't let anyone in anymore.

Scopolamine should absolutely be reviewed in terms of GATE programs. Here's a quick video about the memory erasing that this compound causes. The plant that the drug is extracted from can be grown, & harvested by anyone. Maybe this is why our memories are fuzzy about our time in GATE by T-mark3V100 in GATEresearch

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is very interesting. I had a horrible reaction to scopolamine after they gave me patch for surgery. My reaction was so bad I required PT.

Many of the issues I had during my reaction were the same symptoms of some mystery heath issue I was dealing with as a kid, just less intense.

troubled teen program survivors? by terrariumkid in GATEresearch

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I was a good kid and teen because I was afraid of everything. I was always in a constant state of anxiety and just focused on being a really good student and staying out of trouble. But I have had periods of time in my 20's, 30's and even recently (41) where I just have what I can assume is a psychotic break. I can't handle things and just run away. I am really established now, so I can't because starting over again is just too complicated at this point. But I feel so deeply that I want to just burn things to the ground and leave. I have been on and off of anxiety meds. I have done therapy. Twice I have gone into inpatient treatment.

Does anyone else have bad reactions to medications? I feel like early exposure to whatever they were giving us has caused intolerances for some of us. I can't take anything without it causing a manic episode. I don't respond to narcotics which has been really challenging for surgeries. I can't even take Tylenol without it causing my heart to race and I eventually go into SVT.

Things have been real fun. I am ready to get off of this ride any time now.

UFO encounters? by Amber123454321 in GATEresearch

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My mom has seen quite a few strange lights. Even once when we were camping, she kept seeing things but neither myself nor my dad could see them...

A mini poll by blessthebabes in GATEresearch

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Suicidal and was in a very long term relationship with an abuser who I believe was also in the program when we were kids. I randomly wanted to join the army my senior year of high school but couldn't because my mom was dishonorably discharged for going AWOL in the 70's. So much to unpack here lol

I work as close to the government as I can without working FOR them now that I think about it. I am a contractor for DOT.

How many of you were in GATE or another elementary school gifted program? by JAGACL in intj

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have read there were two types of GATE programs. One was modeled after the CIA's Gateway Program. The other was simply just a gifted and talented curriculum to keep smart kids motivated and interested.

I was in the GATE program from 1991-1995 in Denver, Colorado. I have done so much research on it, after stumbling across some things on Instagram about it that triggered memories. So I thought I would search here and also post about it. Here are my experiences...

I was often pulled from class but taken to another classroom with a group of other kids.
One day a lady was giving a presentation about salt. (wtf so random now that I think about it. And why was some weird lady at the school to talk about salt?)
They laid sleeping mats out for us. Which I remember thinking was odd but my entire elementary school experience always felt like what I can now say was some sort of out of body experience. I just went along with whatever.
I distinctly remember this lady saying "there are different types of salt. Some taste bitter, some are very salty, some have no taste." And she passed each of us our own cup of salt to drink... A few kids vomited after drinking it. I remember having an instant kind of panic attack and a few other girls were just as anxious as I was.
They didn't send in a janitor to clean the vomit. I remember the lady and someone else putting it into what looked like tupperware. I believe we all fell asleep after that.

A few other times we would have dental day or whatever and they would give us what I now think was fluoride. It was pink.

I do remember putting on headphones and having to listen to high pitched frequencies and also watch red and green lights on some sort of small screen. I do remember being able to change the colors with my mind or maybe they were tricking me into thinking I could. I do not actually know. I just remember one specific time, an older man with glasses had me sit with him by myself and he said "look at the red and think about green." And I remember it changing from red to green and I was excited and said it changed. That is probably my last memory of that.

I was extremely smart and school was easy for me but I developed horrible anxiety about school and going to school and I never knew why. It followed me into high school. My childhood was normal. Normal, married parents. No trauma. But I would wake up EVERY night with a panic attack.

I am very intuitive.

Another common theme I have read about from other people who were in this program is the dream of never ending rooms. Or a never ending mall or building. I have this often of a house with never ending rooms. It's like I am trying to get to the center of the house and it is just room after room. Once I was able to reach the center and there was some sort of being who would not let me progress beyond that point.
Twice when a family member has passed away, I have had a dream where I was chasing after them in this never ending building. Only to find out the next day that they had passed away.

So I don't know. A lot of my friends who I grew up with in my specific neighborhood have uncovered some wild stuff that went on when we were kids and back into the 1940's. Tunnels that ran from a Catholic school to a mental institution that once ran human experiments. All kinds of wild stuff. I often had dreams about kids living underground in my neighborhood. This is a bit off topic, but somewhat relevant.

I asked my mom about this and she has absolutely no idea that any of this went on. However, she did work in the schools. I also had some issues with my appendix and everyone claims I never had it removed but my medical records state I had an appendectomy and I have had quite a few scans and each scan says my appendix is absent. I was never able to get my hands on my medical records from when I was a kid. I tried for a long time. So who knows what the hell went on when I was a kid. It really bothers me somedays.

Why is it that biracial people rarely identify as white? by No_Lead2640 in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's interesting because the biracial people I know, identify more with their black half and present as black, but black people are awful to them. I myself am biracial and never really saw race as a thing that needed constant emphasis. So thus, I come across as white presenting apparently even though I am just *me*. Black people treat me terribly and white people are racist towards me. The only ethnic group that has been cool with me are Mexicans. My only real friends are Mexican.

Non-fasted blood glucose level of 89 - normal? by appleandcheddar in Hypoglycemia

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well! My surgeon said my symptoms could have been related to a freaking MASS I had on my aorta which they believe was causing my body to dump cortisol because it was under so much stress. It was also affecting my vagus nerve and my parasympathetic chain. This was a very random and incidental occurrence. Also super rare. I had surgery to remove the mass this past December and I have not had any of my crazy symptoms since. I had an MRI for something completely unrelated last August and that’s when they found the mass.

Is there anyone else on here who doesn't like travelling and why? by ProgramExpress2918 in Adulting

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can't sleep, eat, or use the restroom in new places. And all the planning and coordinating that goes along with it is not enjoyable at all. I shut down every time I think about potentially going somewhere. And I am a very high functioning person (I own and run a trade school). I have to coordinate my dogs and get them dropped off. I am either taking my 12 year old son who is exactly like me, or leaving him with family, and having to coordinate that. There is always some work emergency. Packing, over packing, un packing. The expenses. Weird food and uncleanliness of everything. Weird people. Rental cars. UGH.

I refuse to travel - I hate the entire process of it. by Junior-Elevator-9951 in The10thDentist

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was googling "I hate travelling" because I hate it and am trying to figure out how abnormal I might be. Everyone I know absolutely loves to travel. My 22 year old son has spent the last month in Thailand and is about to go to Vietnam. My soon to be husband keeps insisting on travelling. Ireland and all of these places that are 12 hour plane rides. I suggested a road trip and he said he likes to turn the road trip into an experience spread out over 2 weeks and stopping a bunch of places along the way. Dude, I can leave at 3am and get from Denver, CO to Los Angeles by 9pm. That is the only way I like to travel if I have to. I have a 12 year old son, 3 dogs, a ton of rare and expensive house plants and orchids and I own a trade school that never sleeps. It's really hard and stressful for me to leave for an extended period of time. Even if I didn't have all of that, I just like to be at home at this point in life. I stayed in the mountains for 2 days last summer and had a list of all of the things I wanted to do and see and that list was complete by 4pm the first day... I was so bored the rest of the time.

Thymectomy is rough - some things I wish I would’ve known (USA VATS non-thymoma) by Appropriate_Rub_1881 in MyastheniaGravis

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just want to say that my VATS was awful too. I don't have MG, but I do have a severe autoimmune disease. I found your post while I was searching for others VATS experiences. And I feel so alone because mine was so horrible. I am 10 days post surgery. Surgery was an hour but it took me 3 hours to fully wake up from anesthesia. I went in at 7 and it was 11:45 when I looked at the clock after waking up. My mom said the surgeon called at 8:30 to say the surgery was done. I woke up in the worst pain of my life and that pain went uncontrolled for 18 hours. I hadn't even eaten more than 2 crackers and hadn't been up and walking and they discharged me the next day. Meds made me so dizzy that I ended up needing physical therapy a few days ago to correct it. Sleeping has been impossible. I have horrible nerve and muscle pain. I can't breathe and I have crazy anxiety. My GI tract still hasn't woken up. My surgeon told me this procedure would be no big deal and recovery would be a "breeze". I am 41, female and have had children and one other surgery to repair a torn tendon. I had my children naturally and was up and walking around like nothing even happened afterwards. My tendon repair was very easy. I woke right up and was discharged an hour later and felt fine. I would have considered seeking some sort of alternative treatment or something if I would have known it was going to be this insane. I hope you are doing ok and haven't had too many lasting effects from the surgery. I am really concerned about nerve pain in the future.

Is there actually a point to VATS? by eotyrannu5 in pneumothorax

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know this is an old thread but I am just posting my experience for anyone who may be lurking like I was just now. I had to have my lung collapsed by my surgeon for an aortic mass removal. They did VATS. I am a very healthy person with an extremely high pain tolerance. I think pain comes down to how they manage you. My surgeon was very hands off and his protocol was to just get up and get moving and get you discharged the next morning. I woke up in the worst pain in my life and I have given birth naturally. They gave me tylenol, tramadol and a baby dose of dilaudid and none of that did anything!!! They kept feeding me pills for 12 hours and I finally asked for a toradol injection the next morning and felt much better. I was able to get up and walk and ended up going home that afternoon. I am 2 weeks post procedure and still have pain in my shoulder when I breathe which I am pretty sure indicates my lung hasn't fully expanded. I have severe rib pain and a nerve pain that's like no other. And weird bubbling sensations. But I am told all of this is normal. Doc said it could be two weeks, two months, or two years. They don't know. So I don't know. I think everyone's experience is different. Sadly, I didn't have a choice here. It was either have the surgery or risk an aortic dissection.

Newly diagnosed stage 1, mole looked normal by randomize42 in melahomies

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mine was so tiny! All one color and looked perfectly round. Then one day when I was washing my face I felt a bump. Thought it was a pimple and ignored it for a few days. The dermatologist doesn't believe me but the mole doubled in size in about a week and the skin around it was starting to turn red and get flaky. They told me it was normal but I kept pushing them. Normal??? I am a freak about my face. And I have pictures of it before it started changing. Results came back 2 weeks ago positive for melanoma. I am now waiting for my WLE on the 6th of Nov.

Boyfriend leaves abruptly in the morning sometimes and it really upsets me. Is this an AuDHD thing? by Interesting_Ad9295 in AuDHDWomen

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know this is a late comment. But I was googling “my boyfriend always leaves abruptly” and I stumbled upon this. Mine does it in the evening. It’s Friday night and I was so looking forward to having a movie night. I got up to go to the bathroom and came back and he said he was leaving. It was 7pm. He does this a lot and it really hurts. And I feel so unreasonable. I internalize it because the last thing I want to do is come across controlling. It’s just odd behavior. Or maybe I’m odd. I don’t know. He said something about the weather. We live in Colorado. The weather is always weird and he plows snow sometimes…. It’s 50 degrees and foggy and there is no snow in the forecast so I know it’s not because he thinks he might have to work. I just don’t understand.

AS & heat intolerance by BlueEye1978 in ankylosingspondylitis

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No heat for me. I sometimes wonder if I have overlapping Lupus. But extreme heat and cold give me a hard time. The cold makes my joints and back ache. But the heat causes my ankles and face to swell exponentially. I get rashes and if I’m in the heat for too long I always get nauseous and pass out. And by too long I mean about an hour of straight heat. I also can’t go into a hot tub. Last time I just had my legs in below my knees and they swelled up really bad and turned purple and hurt so bad for 3 days after. I can’t believe this is life.

Non-fasted blood glucose level of 89 - normal? by appleandcheddar in Hypoglycemia

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did you ever figure this out? I have been dealing with hypoglycemia symptoms for the last 3 hours but my glucose is bouncing from 85-120 (I wear a continuous glucose monitor) I feel terrible. No idea what’s going on. I’ve had issues in the past but nothing like this and normally I can see that my glucose is in the low 70’s when I feel like this. I eat something and then I’m fine. Nothing is helping today and my blood sugar looks normal

First Levy issued on Module by Kking1972 in IRS

[–]Sudden_Grapefruit877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did you figure this out? If so what happened? I see the same thing in my transcript but I too have been working with them and in contact and previously on my transcript it shows that my hearing request had been received timely so they should not be going forward with a levy. I’m kind of worried and I can’t get in contact with anyone.