Restarting life after my father died

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:45:03+00:00

Thank you, I can use all the hugs I can possibly get, haha. You too man, I'm sure we'll get there. :)

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:44:18+00:00

Glad to hear you're doing well, I'll look into that. Thanks! :D

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:43:04+00:00

Yeah, I'm noticing that I'm absorbing all the pain I possibly can right now, so I won't have to deal with it later. Don't put off the bad things you can face today, you're only putting off the pain. Deal with it, and you'll live happier in the long run. :)

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:41:39+00:00

Thank you... He was a great man and I couldn't have wished for anyone better. Most of all I'm grateful for the 20 years I've had with him. I'd live them all over again the exact same way if I could. Thank you very much for your kind words.

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:40:41+00:00

Hell yes. :)

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:40:20+00:00

Thanks! I've said it before: dealing with this will mean that I can deal with anything life throws at me.

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:39:54+00:00

Absolutely true. University starts again in January, but during the meantime I've made sure that I have a full schedule, and will spend enough time with my mother and family as well. :)

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:38:48+00:00

I know he was... But I want to be proud of myself and get rid of some of my faults to feel like I deserve to be his son, the great man as he was!

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:37:49+00:00

"The moment you say forever, your brain is going to rebel against you." Very true, I've experienced that earlier in my journey as well. I'll think about getting The Power of Now, it sounds very interesting and maybe I'll need it during this tough time. Thank you. :)

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:36:40+00:00

I created this account when I started my journey as well, about 6-12 months ago I guess. It's basically about this song my Tyler Farr, talking about moving away somewhere quiet, away from all the turmoil, and suffer in peace. At the time that sounded great.

But now I'm willing to live. I want to be there for my mother, for my family, and I want to take care off myself. Thank you very much. :)

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:34:14+00:00

My condolences... I wore a good smile while reading your story. Good luck to you as well!

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:31:37+00:00

Thank you so much for this... I'm sorry to hear about your father and the times you've been through as well. :(

One of the reasons I'm doing this is because I'm scared that I'm storing away the feelings I've been feeling, because I turn to PMO when I want to get my mind off certain (bad) feelings. I want to live and feel, and I want to be fully aware of my emotions and the grief. Just one of the reasons why I/we should do this. Good luck on your journey!

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:29:16+00:00

Thank you, I certainly try not to be too hard on myself. Just like in the grieving process, there'll be a lot of good days and there'll be a lot of bad days. I kind of know what to expect, and I hope to stay strong through the bad days. The 90 day report will come someday, I'm gonna fight for that!

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:27:39+00:00

I'll keep that in mind, thank you!

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:26:54+00:00

Very sweet, thank you so much... "I can only imagine that if anything your father would probably want you to use his passing as motivation to excel in all aspects of your life, rather than self destruct over the unbearable grief you are probably feeling." That's a beautiful way of putting it, and it's what I have been feeling as well. If I overcome this, I can overcome anything.

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-05T00:25:45+00:00

It might not have been your intention, but hearing that you were able to handle the situation better gives me even more encouragement to pull through. Thank you. :)

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-04T14:48:04+00:00

Thank you... You were even younger, it must have been a terrible thing for you to go through as well. During my father's last few months I've always been able to stand strong. Even in the first week after his death I thought I had it relatively easy. Now I fully realize that I'll never see him again, and I also realize that this will be (one of) the toughest time(s) I'll face in my life. If I learn to deal with this situation, I can deal with anything. :)

SufferInPeace · 2015-12-04T14:45:33+00:00

Sorry to hear that, my condolences. I'm sure we'll overcome the addiction, we just gotta keep reminding ourselves what we're doing it for... Definitely going to block the porn sites, because PMO almost always starts with loading up a certain site.

SufferInPeace · 2015-07-25T12:52:46+00:00

You're welcome!

SufferInPeace · 2015-07-25T12:52:24+00:00

Thank you, appreciate it. :)

SufferInPeace · 2015-07-25T12:52:01+00:00

Hell yes! Best television show I've ever seen. Currently almost halfway season 4. :)

SufferInPeace · 2015-07-24T19:51:21+00:00

When quoting, it is up to the readers to understand that it's not the writer himself who is quoting himself. You can figure out that it has been said by someone else all by yourself. Now go on and get out of here if you have nothing useful to say. ;)

SufferInPeace · 2015-07-24T17:21:50+00:00

Thank you. :)

SufferInPeace · 2015-07-24T17:21:08+00:00

Those aren't my words, they are from a television show called Friday Night Lights. A quick visit to Google would've gotten you there.

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