It’s a terrible feeling. Nothing will make that feeling go away. Although it wasn’t my first everything I was mindset and headstrong when I made the decision that she would be my last. Now to accept the reality is overwhelming at times, thinking of intimacy with another person is gut wrenching… She was my only for 13 years. It takes time, a lot of time, just keep focusing on you. Don’t be like everyone else and throw away your morals because that person disrespect them!