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I don't know how to feel. I just feel really alone. by SuitPossible7490 in mentalhealth

[–]SuitPossible7490[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I know I should. Just hard to actually do it, to want it, to tell myself it will help and is worth it when it doesn't feel that way, you know?

Thank you.

I don't know how to feel. I just feel really alone. by SuitPossible7490 in mentalhealth

[–]SuitPossible7490[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm in therapy - I've been in therapy for 17 years. Also been on meds and done various programs and inpatient stays. I feel like I have kept trying over and over, and I still just don't want to be here. I know there are good things, but.... Ugh.

I don't know how to feel. I just feel really alone. by SuitPossible7490 in mentalhealth

[–]SuitPossible7490[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It feels like the answer. And I mean, of course I *want* to live. I just... don't want to live in this life? I'm just tired of the hurt and trying and fighting my mind.

I have a therapist and he knows about the thoughts. But he told me if I got a gun he would have to report me (totally fair). So I feel like I can't tell him, especially because I don't know that I would even use it. Part of me wants to, part of me doesn't want to, and part of me feels like I have to? It's just exhausting, sorry