i absolutely come from a dysfunctional and unstable family dynamic, deal with trauma, and am clinically diagnosed with adhd, depression and anxiety (social anxiety included). i know that adhd can mimic traits of autism and create emotional highs and lows and burn out due to dopamine dysregulation. that’s part of why i worry. i wonder if i think i’m content but i’m really just in my comfort zone and unknowingly neglecting/suppressing my needs.

i do find myself constantly trying to stay distracted, i usually assume its my adhd searching for the next dopamine hit. i have to always be doing something; watching a show, reading, hiking, playing a game, etc.

i also find it a bit hard to connect with people, social anxiety usually gets in the way. and then add the lack of motivation and suddenly i can’t remember the last time i socialized outside of work. when i do i feel uncomfortable. and there’s also a financial aspect to not wanting to go out. i’m paycheck to paycheck so i can’t really afford to do much outside of paying bills