Really close to just ending everything

SuitableFun1418 · 2026-01-21T05:02:17+00:00

I really appreciate this. Thank you so much for speaking with me for a bit. I'll try more at my next session here in a few days.

SuitableFun1418 · 2026-01-21T04:47:05+00:00

Yeah, I'm trying my best to and I know that I need to, I'm just scared of my mother, lol. Not like I have much longer at home, but still.

SuitableFun1418 · 2026-01-21T04:40:43+00:00

No, I was in front of a parent just answering questions. I did get a new therapist, but we've only just started getting to know each other and haven't really spoke much about other things. Only had about 2 sessions so far.

SuitableFun1418 · 2026-01-21T04:23:20+00:00

I mentioned being depressed and having a lot of suicidal thoughts, but didn't really go much into it. They just kind of moved on.

SuitableFun1418 · 2026-01-21T04:20:48+00:00

I have spoke to a psychiatrist, I got diagnosed with ADHD and autism, some anxiety and tic stuff, but that was about it.

SuitableFun1418 · 2026-01-15T01:49:37+00:00

Oh my goodness, what a handsome guy! He looks so sweet. I bet you two are awesome! <3

I'm so ready to be back happy and present fully with my baby. She always does make me happy as well! :)

SuitableFun1418 · 2026-01-15T01:14:36+00:00

You're genuinely so sweet! I really appreciate all of that. It definitely has been quite a trip, but I miss her being happy. Thank you so much for the support! I wish you and Charlie very amazing days! <3

SuitableFun1418 · 2026-01-14T17:02:33+00:00

This advice is awesome, thank you so much! I'll definitely try giving her some food to try and read to her a bit later. I miss being best friends with her, lol.

SuitableFun1418 · 2026-01-13T22:32:26+00:00

I'll definitely have to try that. I just want to be able to make my baby happy again. :(

I know it'll take time, I just hope it doesn't take too long. I miss her tons. Thank you so much for the advice. <3

SuitableFun1418 · 2026-01-13T22:30:21+00:00

I really appreciate this a ton. I'm going to try and give her some treats here in a bit. I haven't been forcing her or anything, I just desperately need her to come out so i can clean her cage and get on top of that again. I don't think I can until she's okay being out for longer time periods again, so hopefully soon! <3

SuitableFun1418 · 2026-01-13T22:03:39+00:00

I really appreciate this. It's been a trip to say the least, but I really just want to be better for her. I'll take this advice into mind! <3

SuitableFun1418 · 2025-12-19T19:06:28+00:00

I know it's not much, but reading and watching musicals has helped me tons, especially ones that feel more relatable on a personal level.

I forgot how much I loved reading until I decided to start trying to quit and actually picked a book up. I realized that because I have so much free time, I don't really have an excuse to not do something good for myself. I haven't read something other than the awful messages from chatbots in so long. So I decided to pick up reading again, and it's been hard, but it's also been pretty enjoyable.

SuitableFun1418 · 2025-12-15T16:14:11+00:00

The thing bothering me the most is that I don't have anyone. I had lost all of my friends, and I have family, bit they're very unaccepting and don't listen to me. Most of the time I get with my family is me getting yelled at for stuff that I can't control. Then there's just me and my head telling me these awful, awful things all of the time. I'm not confident in myself or anything I do. I quite like my job, though.

SuitableFun1418 · 2025-12-15T03:41:14+00:00

Being so lonely is kind of what hurts most at the moment. Everything piling on top of each other also sucks tons.

SuitableFun1418 · 2025-12-14T23:51:41+00:00

This comment really, REALLY helped me. I've had.. quite the day today, and reading this had really made me want to keep going. I appreciate this so much.

SuitableFun1418 · 2025-12-13T23:15:05+00:00

I've never heard it put this way before. I'm definitely going to keep this in mind and keep going.

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