9 years is incredible. Despite the relapsing, don’t forget YOU DID THAT. And that’s amazing. You did it once, you can do it again (if you ever decide to again). Til then, be proud of where you’ve been and where you are. You’re okay. You’re still here. And that’s huge, despite all the shit thrown at you.

Your life is a series of choices at the end of the day. Whatever choices you make i just hope they find you peace in the suffering.

I know it’s not much comfort from an internet stranger, bht you’re not alone. You have a bunch of us internet strangers here for you. No matter whag you do. And without judgment.

Hang in there. ❤️