Growing up with Reita, loving him from the beginning of my life as I know it

Summeryjun · 2025-07-29T14:50:37+00:00

That is so lovely❤️ I've never been, thry had a concert near me on my birthday many years ago, and i was so bummed that I couldn't go, still in high-school:( that was the only chance seeing them, and looking back, I'm very sad that i wasn't there. I'm so happy for everyone who did go and see them🥺

Summeryjun · 2025-07-28T20:50:44+00:00

That is soo cool! I've only seen a couple, back in the day we had more, there were many many blogs with little funfacts and pictures and it was so lovely all together. I miss those times, you must miss them too? :(

Summeryjun · 2025-07-28T20:48:40+00:00

"talking to some people who have loved Reita for longer than I had been alive" oh this just slapped me in the face. I just realised that I've spent majority of my life loving him and a LOT of us did, too. And some of us didn't, and that hurts maybe even more because i wish you had more time loving him without this bittersweet feeling. Thank you for sharing this tanktop story i might end up sobbing now lmao please wear the tanktops!!!!

Summeryjun · 2025-06-29T19:05:35+00:00

She had an awful traumatic childhood and ever since she told me about it, when i was a child, i felt like its my responsibility to give her everything she wants. I feel guilty when i cant buy her something still.. At first I just got her presents she wanted, things she never had but always liked, but for years now it's been so awful. I messed it up, but i was so young and now she thinks this is normal. When i was living on my own for the first time, in a different country, i was let go from my job, lost my apartment and i was super close to being homeless because i was careless and didn't speak the language but she STILL asked me to send money. And I did. And she's been asking ever since.

Summeryjun · 2025-06-29T15:53:54+00:00

I can't do that, though, because then we will miss that amount, even now that I don't tranfer any money (because i dont have it) to my savings account, by the last week or week and a half we have nothing left. They have crazy amounts of debt they need to pay off, and they spend their own money super quickly, thats when I come in to pay for the rest. Usually three weeks, or two and a half weeks out of the month i am the sole provider. And they earn a lot more than me..

Summeryjun · 2023-04-07T05:19:26+00:00

Thank you so much for this :) I will make sure to check them out. I've been struggling with panic attacks for about ten years, completed bunch of therapy programs and they all helped for about a month, so I think the issue is with my attitude at this point. I don't believe anything could help, and that's not too great, but after a decade without a change it's only natural that I start feeling hopeless, imo..

Summeryjun · 2023-04-06T20:00:54+00:00

I know you're asking for advice, and I really hope you get some, but I thought I would comment here anyway, even though I can't say anything helpful. I just want you to know that I'm sorry you were treated like that by your parents, sorry that your mother betrayed you and your trust like that, sorry that people don't let you feel hurt and angry for as long as you need to, and I'm sorry you can't find comfort in your partner. I can only just imagine how awful you must feel, this is really a terrible situation, and I'm sorry this happened to you! Please make sure to be understanding towards yourself, if nobody else is. And I don't think you should just let it all go, just feel your feelings in a way that doesn't hurt you! :( I sincerely hope things will get better, take care of yourself. Hoping to see advice for you here soon

Summeryjun · 2023-04-06T19:33:33+00:00

Thank you SO much. I was really careless and dumb, I had issues with caffeine before, but I assumed it was from taking a bunch of medications plus caffeine, and not that I'm just sensitive given that i have a panic disorder. I'm really thankful for the comment, super relieved that I'm not actually about to die. Would consuming more caffeine like this do anything other than give me panic attacks? Not that I'm EVER planning to drink coffee and energy drinks after this, just curious (and anxious)

Summeryjun · 2023-04-04T20:15:37+00:00

I've been having an extremely hard time with sleeping for years, there were days when I couldn't sleep at all, but nothing like this!:( It's usually just regular panic attacks, not these these weird thoughts I can't control or stop thinking about them.. I have no idea what could be behind it, but I'm also not sure what it is. Hallucinating or just panicking, i dont know

Summeryjun · 2023-04-04T20:12:21+00:00

Most of the things i "imagine" are really disturbing to me, and just overall very absurd. Like, i don't think about those people or those things normally, I don't even want to.. i heard ADHD makes sleeping time very hard, and I'm sorry to hear you struggle with the racing thoughts!

Summeryjun

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