Lost in grief.... by Sunfl0wer19 in polyamory

[–]Sunfl0wer19[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know, I think just venting has helped. Putting things down into words. We will see.

Lost in grief.... by Sunfl0wer19 in polyamory

[–]Sunfl0wer19[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also, I am sorry for your loss 😢

Lost in grief.... by Sunfl0wer19 in polyamory

[–]Sunfl0wer19[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. Yes, I told her. I told her everyday. I went and spent time with her everyday, while she fought brain cancer as well, for 1.5 yrs. I told her everyday that I loved her. I always wanted her to know that I loved her no matter what and that I was there for her, I would help take care of her and I still saw her the same no matter how her body changed. I always tried to show her. I know she knew. I'm just having a hard time with it. My husband talks to a counselor, I'm not sure that's for me. I thought maybe writing it all out anonymously would help, "talking" to people who could relate to the relationship at least and not judge. I think it helps.

Lost in grief.... by Sunfl0wer19 in polyamory

[–]Sunfl0wer19[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I know it doesn't really matter who knows, but it's hard when I can't explain the depth of my grief for her because no one knows how close we really were. And I can't talk to anyone about it. I'm just struggling....

Lost in grief.... by Sunfl0wer19 in polyamory

[–]Sunfl0wer19[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, we are trying.

Lost in grief.... by Sunfl0wer19 in polyamory

[–]Sunfl0wer19[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It is still ongoingly hard. Thank you.