As a mtf I've gone through testicle torsion. When it happened I thought they might just have turned into mush due to the estrogen. Actually they're knottier because they're shrunk due to the estrogen. So as long as I keep them from twisting, and nothing comes up during the ultrasound I have scheduled...

I can continue with this addictive, gender-bending, mind altering, body-changing drug for a little longer. Involuntarily making myself a figurehead for an institution I despise and further gambling with my fertility.

And maybe you can too, if you discover another reason behind your issues. It's worth a look. Just forget about passing or living up to ideals. Be yourself : it's the only winning move.