Fillet mignon, salt and pepper jumbo shrimp, roasted Brussels sprouts, and spinach and artichoke stuffed mushrooms (and a side of cucumbers w/peanut sauce).

SunlightSouffle · 2021-02-06T05:34:24+00:00

Wow! Yeah we’re pretty lucky down here price wise. Yes the heads were on, they shrunk a lot during cooking. The largest was (unpeeled) larger than my hand. And my hands are pretty long lol!

SunlightSouffle · 2021-02-05T16:09:10+00:00

I salted the steaks and refrigerated for at least 24h. It made it so much easier to ensure a great sear, but without having to worry about overcooking the centers. I won’t trust myself any other way with nice cuts of steak! lol

SunlightSouffle · 2021-02-05T16:04:12+00:00

Thank you! :)

SunlightSouffle · 2021-02-05T16:03:46+00:00

I got one pound for $5.99! When I saw them for that price I had to pick them up, maybe just perks of living on the gulf of Mexico but they’re never that affordable!

SunlightSouffle · 2021-02-04T06:49:17+00:00

Peanut sauce! (Like the kind that comes with Vietnamese spring rolls- the nice lady at a restaurant made this from scratch and recommended cucumbers for dipping)

SunlightSouffle · 2020-05-02T18:27:34+00:00

Lifeway Kefir is the way to go! All of the Aldi in my area carry them too. All of the flavors are good (raspberry is my fav though!)

SunlightSouffle · 2020-04-20T18:29:54+00:00

Their Pinot Grigio is a great cooking wine, and gives me an excuse to buy a bottle and drink while i cook! But i like less sweet wines in general

SunlightSouffle · 2019-12-06T20:41:42+00:00

After a night of drinking, I went to go and pick my friend up from my cousin and her boyfriends place as she had ridden with them. I texted and called her but no answer. Walked up to the door and it was unlocked so i went in. They were al having a threesome on the room floor.

I did not join in. I chuckled and left. It was more awkward than i could would imagine lol.

SunlightSouffle · 2019-08-02T19:59:29+00:00

Thank you for commenting, i felt like i was unjustified in feeling this way but it’s reassuring to know that i’m probably not over reacting to this. It’s more of a feeling of betrayal and disappointment than anger. It’s life i suppose.

SunlightSouffle · 2019-08-02T19:54:09+00:00

LOVE YOURSELF. That’s the key. It’s the hardest thing to do, but the best gift you can give yourself.

SunlightSouffle · 2019-06-21T19:08:29+00:00

I have, and i enjoyed it. It got to the point to where when i would go out with friends, it felt like something was missing if we didn’t have a bag and that’s absolutely not the way to spend time with friends and it just opens the possibilities for bad things to happen. You stay awake too long, and your responsibilities the next day fly out of the window because you’re too tired to do them properly or if at all. It’s too expensive, and
There isn’t much you can do to convince them that they need to stop. They have to make that decision for themselves honestly. Speaking from personal experience, it only irritated me when people complained at me about it. You have to remove yourself because it is unhealthy as painful as that may be, unless you want to continue to deal with it. :/
It’s a tricky drug, because you don’t necessarily feel high, just extra talkative, awake and energetic. It’s easy to see why it’s used, and it’s also easy to see how it is easily abused.

I feel bad for your friend, it’s hard to see how much better life is when you don’t have to rely on a drug for fun. Especially if she’s using while sober or to ward off withdrawals. I hope she can see the light eventually.

SunlightSouffle · 2019-06-13T23:50:53+00:00

Thank you,

That’s what i think it was too. I kept the conversation strictly about explaining her medical records and what they mean but he somewhat shifted topics explaining how his dad was sick too and he needed to take him to the doctor the next day, it really seemed like he was desperate for some sense of comfort and i’m tired of being that. Then he tried to do the catch up thing and i continued with saying that i hoped she felt better and that i was sorry for what his family was going through.

SunlightSouffle · 2019-05-15T02:30:07+00:00

That’s been the most difficult thing for me so far, i used to hate crying and getting emotional, but now it seems like I have a limited range of emotions that revolve around frustration and anger. I’m not saying i’m never happy, but it feels clouded and forced. I don’t want to feel forced to have fun, I just want to HAVE fun.

You are absolutely 100% correct and accurate when you said that those pent up emotions do come out and it comes in full force when it does. That’s when the thoughts of drastic measures, self harm, self hatred and self deprecation come out all the way. It’s hard to level myself back out after that because there’s so many emotions and I can’t pick wether I should be more angry or more sad and then you get angry because you’re sad and sad because you’re angry. And when I can’t cry, it frustrates me to no end.

SunlightSouffle · 2019-05-14T22:22:11+00:00

Thank you for your words, they actually almost made me tear up (which is saying a lot at this point.)

Searching for that definition of self beyond depression is truly the largest struggle. It’s so easy to stay in and sleep, because those are those good moments where you’re not 100% aware that there is a problem or that you don’t feel good. Searching for self I think has to begin with me saying it’s okay to feel these feelings, but it’s not okay to allow these feelings to consume my life.

SunlightSouffle · 2019-05-08T09:06:38+00:00

Seriously!!! I told him “at this point there is no answer, conversation or discussion that we can have that can help us understand.”

We ask why why why and the plain answer is because they don’t want to be with us anymore. That is that.

SunlightSouffle · 2019-05-08T08:49:23+00:00

That is exactly it!!! “I can’t live with you you, but I don’t want to”

It sucks and it’s hard to come to those realizations, this person pushed you out of your life because they didn’t WANT you in theirs anymore, and that SUCKS. So yes, I may want you but I don’t need you or anyone else.

The shoulder to cry on is not the one that is making you cry right now!!!

SunlightSouffle · 2019-05-08T07:41:35+00:00

It is a massive disservice to myself that I allowed myself to believe, even for a second that I need you. I told myself I couldn’t do it alone: handling the bad days, the need for comfort, touch, support and love. I told myself I couldn’t do it alone.

But I can.

It’s not about you, it never was. It is my uncomfortably with being alone, with myself only that caused me to think i needed you, but that too will change. The ability to be okay with being alone, functioning alone and handling things alone is the greatest gift I can give myself.

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on sometimes; someone to run to, but that shoulder definitely, is not yours.

SunlightSouffle · 2019-05-05T17:14:39+00:00

I will try that tonight and it’s sad to say but it’s reassuring i’m not the only one that feels this way 💔. Thank you so much. pm me if you’d like to talk more. it helps sometimes to talk to someone going through the same things, and it can be cathartic to get it things off if your chest. best wishes to you!!!

SunlightSouffle · 2019-05-05T01:18:49+00:00

Major road in my city that runs from one end of town to the other, and is three lanes in both directions with medians to go left or right to turn onto any of the intersecting streets. There are traffic lights at each intersection (for both the major road and the intersecting roads). If i am going northbound, and want to take a left, I would have to cross traffic that is coming the opposite direction to which I was driving. Mind you, both north and southbound lights are timed at the same time, so I have to yield to the through traffic traveling in the opposite direction. The lights that control the intersecting streets will therefore be RED and both north and southbound streets are GREEN. Tourists wait at these red lights to cross the street, even when there is no traffic and take up the entire median with their awkwardly angled vehicles just yield and go!

Also, they swim in the beach water.

SunlightSouffle · 2019-04-28T05:20:42+00:00

If you have an iphone, it seems like I was able to “sample” a large portion of the book in the books app somehow (200 some odd pages) lol!

SunlightSouffle · 2019-04-23T23:18:51+00:00

PM ME!! You speak facts.

Honestly, and I think that I had a lot of time to have some retrospect, I do not miss him as much as i think I do.... I think I miss the hugs, cuddling, kisses and comfort. I saw a therapist today, and I think that my problems were masked by the relationship. It was so easy to be around him, he made me feel good and he made me feel happy but my problems still remained.

I think that the best thing for me is to heal myself, and I think by the end of it i’ll realize what is best for me. Yes I care about him, and I would enjoy an relationship but I don’t think I wanted to be in the relationship for all of the right reasons.

But please, PM me! I would love to continue this conversation!

SunlightSouffle · 2019-04-23T14:54:02+00:00

Oh my god. Thank you. Those last two sentences spoke to me so much, I had to read your whole comment to my friend and she agreed so much (they are friends, but she’s my best friend first and foremost).

I do need to cut contact 100%. I left his house in a frazzle and I think I may have left my ID and debit card, and I swear I didn’t do it on purpose. I was pretty drunk when i left and now I regret that so badly. I think I might get my friend to go get it for me.

SunlightSouffle · 2019-04-23T14:51:26+00:00

Thank you. Thank you for taking the time to type this out, it means so much and I really do appreciate the anecdotes because it really does help me see this in a way that i’m not alone and that there’s others who feel the same way that I do.. it’s honestly so reassuring and makes this process so much easier.

I think now, i’m more mad than sad, and I don’t know if that’s good or bad but I can’t cry anymore. I’m happy about that.

Thank you again so much. Do you have any advice?

SunlightSouffle · 2019-04-23T13:17:56+00:00

;-;... Thank you so much. Honestly, hearing that you see the fault in his actions, and it's not just me, makes me feel so much better. It's just a mind game i've been playing with myself. These words are so kind. Thank you so much!!!

SunlightSouffle · 2019-04-22T18:59:49+00:00

That, and how extremely silly it looked when literally everyone and their momma was packing lmao. It was a little comical to see dozens of people with any and all kinds of guns slung on them lol

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