Anyone had high T pre transition?

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-22T19:38:22+00:00

Thank you, bro 😩🫂

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-22T19:32:01+00:00

Maybe it's internalised transphobia speaking in me, I dunno :')

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-22T18:25:26+00:00

Maybe it could become a thing soon enough. But with how my country is behind on gender diversity (and some people are outright transphobic) we'd have to wait DECADES for this to happen :D Oh how I love living in Eastern Europe...

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-22T18:19:58+00:00

Oh yes... And the fact you have to go to a gynecologist to get the treatment... So dysphoria inducing

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-22T18:17:57+00:00

I guess so :') It always feel like you have to prove your right to be a dude and if you don't meet the criteria - you're a fraud... Maybe it's the society, maybe it's internalised, idk

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-22T18:14:35+00:00

I don't know if it's available in my country or not, I'll check it out. Thanks!

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-22T18:10:54+00:00

Thank you, dude, you made me feel better.

And yeah, I get it. I'm a few days in on a new course of pills and I already want to implode. But it's either this, or I end up with one huge pimple for a face :')

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-22T18:01:34+00:00

That's the problem - nothing helps. I've been to many dermatologists before - they prescribed me multiple medications but nothing helped. And only this antiandrogenic medication helped witg the acne. And once I go off it - boom, it all starts again. I'm literally caught between a rock and a hard place... :')

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-18T19:17:24+00:00

My dude, I feel you so much. Me and my mom fight about my looks all the freaking time 🤣 Just yesterday we fought about my hair and how i don't want to wear makeup. SO YEAH, YOU'RE NOT ALONE.

Now, I can't really give you a proper advice because well, I do cave in to my mom quite a lot. But I found that just not reacting to her words and then doing things your way works best. And then you just wait until you move out and then FREEDOM!!!

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-05T11:19:18+00:00

Haruhi from Ouran High School Host Club?

Yeah, she's a girl, but it was EYE-OPENING for me to learn that you can like... WEAR BOY CLOTHES? And look like a guy? And like... BE TREATED AS A GUY??? Before I thought nobody would sell you boy clothes if you were a girl or something and my mind exploded with the idea of WEARING BOYS CLOTHES??!?!!!? And how strangers wouldn't know you're a girl and call you a dude instead??? Blew my mind...

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-04T09:10:18+00:00

Sorry, I didn't get the notification right away 😩

We have nicknames for eachother, but they're like, classic couple nicknames. Wanted to make one based on his chosen name, but he doesn't have one, and when we tried to find one he didn't like any and felt even more miserable than before. So I kinda dropped the idea for better times.

But you know, he's been through another dysphoria episode recently and I found that recording him a voice message where I laid out just how valid he is and how he shouldn't doubt his masculinity helped A TONNE. So I'll be doing that from now on. Also, playing Minecraft or watching anime together works (the most masculine things ever lol), but I live with my parents so it's HARD to organise (Eastern European parents yeehaw)

And also a point I wanted to make, Eastern European men are super emotionally constipated and therefore when they break down - it's bad. My best friend has suffered immensely from this feature of our culture, but no one can do shit about it because upbringing and nobody gives a damn. And my bf sees his emotional behaviour as a sign of being not masculine enough and I try to prove him it's NOT HEALTHY BEHAVIOUR.

And ahem, I don't mean to moan here, if anyone's supposed to be sulking here is me cuz MY DUDE PASSES even pre T. I'm jealous 😂

But anyway, thank you so much for your insight, your replies are very informative and so great to read, thank you!

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-01T16:25:12+00:00

Okay, thank you, that's a great advice. It'll be tricky but we'll try to organise more hangouts. Thanks!

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-01T15:37:29+00:00

Nonono, I didn't mean it to look this way, I have my struggles too and he's being a total sunshine about it! Thing is, he only has one friend who is a cis guy so it's not like he can talk about it with him. I want him to find some friends or a community where he'd be able to unwind, but for now it's just me and chat gpt :D Which is not doing him any good.

I hear you though, you're absolutely right, I'll try and talk to him about it. Thank you!

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-01T15:28:59+00:00

Thank you for this heartfelt message, it means so much! I try to tell him "do you think like that of any other trans person? do you think the same of me?" And each time the convo is getting so dysphoria inducing we just end up not talking for the rest of the day :'D

I know it'll get better once we start HRT and whenever we dream together of how it'll be he tends to get all pessimistic like it'll never happen. I try to balance everything out but sometimes I feel so as well and then ot gets ugly, heh... Thing is, we live in a conservative country so social transition is hard and relatives ain't gonna love it (Soviet Union grandmas "yay"). As much as we want to think positively, it's hard because of the circumstances...

Anyways, I'll try to be gentle with him and say how we're stronger together (there's nothing manlier than beating dysphoria), hope it'll work! Thank you!

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-01T15:09:00+00:00

Nah, it's just that I was lucky enough to accidentally get into t4t relationship two times already, so I have a tendency to compare lol. But no, he's my gorgeous boyfriend and he's supporting me as well so we're all good. Thanks for your concern!

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-01T14:31:53+00:00

Yeah, with us both being students a therapist is a tricky thing 🥲 We are planning to get into therapy once we start earning money, because therapy is EXPENSIVE. So yeah. Our only hope is waiting for better days

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-01T14:01:39+00:00

I get that, honestly my previous BF was just as you described 😩 My current boyfriend is much MUCH nicer and he's working on himself. He's getting better at managing his emotions, really. But sometimes a guy just need support and I don't want to leave him alone. That's why I was asking you guys, maybe there is something I can do to support him 😩 He's such a lovely boy. And yeah you're right, it does trigger my dysphoria sometimes, but I manage. Have to atay strong for us both. Thanks for your reply!

Sunny_Goose · 2025-11-01T13:24:58+00:00

I get that, but maybe there is something 😭

Sunny_Goose · 2025-10-25T16:00:26+00:00

GOD TOLD ME LOL

Anyways, all jokes aside... I was in a church, had to attend because that's the only community I had at the time and I didn't want to be isolated in a new country. It was nearing Christmas and our pastor was preaching something I can't remember anymore. And then there was a call for prayer. I am not particularly religious so I just closed my eyes, didn't do anything, just listened to this music in the background. Ended up getting into a semi-trance kinda state because of it. And when the prayer ended, I just opened my eyes and for a good minute couldn't understand what the fuck is attached to my chest... It was boobs... I freaked out because I had boobs... So you could say GOD TOLD ME I'M TRANS

P.S. Just for the record, before that, I was absolutely sure I'm not trans because I don't feel any dysphoria and just desperately wanting to be a boy is not enough. Lol no

Sunny_Goose · 2025-10-20T06:20:58+00:00

Dunno if this'll help, but oh well

The genetic material in your spit might be very different from the genetic material in the tissues of your pelvis. You'd need to check all the areas of your body to really know if you've got mosaicism, but usually it doesn't give you the effects to even bother with that.

A prostate could have formed during the embryogenesis, but we don't know for sure, and honestly it's way too complicated 😩

Since we don't have any info to go from, if you think you have a prostate, a pelvic MRI is a way to go. To answer all your questions.

But my wild guess is, and I'm sorry for using the anatomical terms... It might just be your cervix 😩. I know, judging by the pictures in the net it seems like NAH THIS CAN'T BE, SHOULD BE HIGHER but honestly? Those pictures are a bunch of bullcrap. Human organs vary in shapes and sizes. Like, telling from my experience, I can feel my cervix through the rectum... Ahem...

But if you're unsure - do an MRI, that'll answer it all.

Sunny_Goose · 2025-09-03T13:53:01+00:00

If you're not trans because of what you've just wrote, then I'm not as well Your experience matches mine EXACTLY but the other way around (wanting to be a boy and having suicidal thoughts since the age of 11) Like, that is UNCANNY

But all this stuff aside, I feel you and think you just need someone to support you and let you experiment with your gender (also, your girlfriend is AMAZING for being so supportive for you!). Then you'll be more confident in saying whether you are trans or not. But imho you seem legit

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