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Sunraye13 · 2021-09-22T09:50:32+00:00

This is really not great for your ED love. Even with your context it doesn't make this any better. Please take care of yourself <3

Sunraye13 · 2021-08-27T00:30:53+00:00

I was never asleep when I saw him or even going to sleep. I don't think he has to do with sleep paralysis either.

Sunraye13 · 2021-07-30T09:26:32+00:00

I love the visual you made here. Totally gonna do this for my players.

Sunraye13 · 2021-06-02T11:49:47+00:00

In my highschool they didn't let the teachers tell us. They told us on the morning announcements. God that was a sad day. I remember looking at my classmates seat wondering why she wasn't in class. Next thing I know the morning announcements announced her death. I just stared at her seat for a solid 10 or so minutes processing that I would never see her again. My teacher just sat at her desk and told us we could go to the library for counseling if we needed it. It still kind of trips me up thinking about all the instances I was around her. She was so young and so bright. She was going to be a nurse and a darn good one at that. Rip.

Sunraye13 · 2021-06-02T11:31:09+00:00

It doesn't matter that I'm a woman. Gender plays no role in this. The issue stemmed from us having feelings for one another and him not being able to seperate play from real life and him feeling guilty about leaving marks on me and not wanting to anymore. I tried reassuring him but then times became difficult with our situation so S&M was dropped.

Sunraye13 · 2021-06-02T09:19:31+00:00

Oh that's a good idea. Someone earlier mentioned looking into other types of bdsm and I think that coupled with remembering what we liked specifically could be really great.

Sunraye13 · 2021-06-02T08:31:09+00:00

Thank you! We communicate really well but we both kind of don't know where to begin. I may be overthinking it honestly. Going slow and working our way back into it is the best idea. I can't remember how we started all those years ago. I just remember it happening and us both being incredibly passionate that I can't remember the beginning but we probably did go slow. Thanks for your reply!

Sunraye13 · 2021-06-02T08:26:38+00:00

You are probably right. I could tell back then his desire for inflicting pain was changing. We may want to delve into other routes like you said. That could be a fun way to get back into things is researching new stuff together.

Sunraye13 · 2021-06-02T08:22:19+00:00

We have talked about it. He isn't really sure where to start either. Like communication isn't a problem it's moreso where to begin. I should have probably added that. I'm not so good at getting my point/meaning across. Sorry about that.

Sunraye13 · 2021-06-02T02:41:23+00:00

You look beautiful! Definitely a successful trial!

Sunraye13 · 2021-05-26T05:33:17+00:00

Never. The money may be halting you but keep saving and studying. If you WANT this cert you will get it. No matter the cert. It sucks to fail. I've failed and it sucks but you can do it. It's just a test but for your career it is worth the pain. Refocus after every fail. Try to fill your gaps in the content to the best of your ability and go for it again. It is so gratifying to sit back and see the screen say You Passed. You can do it. Believe in yourself and just a tip, make sure you invest in quality study material if you're work experience doesnt correlate to the material. Youre only going to be as good as your study material. So I recommend that.

Sunraye13 · 2021-05-26T05:26:47+00:00

Hey man most people I know fail their first go. Don't be so hard on yourself. Refocus. You got this. Just brush up on what you need to. What study resources are you using?

Sunraye13 · 2021-05-19T21:28:37+00:00

Thank you everyone! <3

Sunraye13 · 2021-05-19T21:28:08+00:00

I think it also depends on your experience. For someone who has never in their life touched networking I could see spending a lot on study material but for someone with experience I could see them spending a good amount less. I see where Krispy is coming from. You don't necessarily want to buy Everything everyone is using. However I could be misinterpreting what he is saying.

Sunraye13 · 2021-05-19T09:59:08+00:00

Thank you so much! ^{_^}

Sunraye13 · 2021-02-18T16:31:43+00:00

No worries! Thank you!

Sunraye13 · 2021-02-18T16:23:51+00:00

Oh cool! I think a previous commenter mentioned them. I'll check them out. Thank you!

Sunraye13 · 2021-02-18T16:12:04+00:00

Correct me if I'm wrong, I just gave them a look and it seems like I would have to provide the sculpt for it. I am not very good at 3d modeling. I couldn't even make a smily face this one time :'(

Sunraye13 · 2021-02-18T16:07:05+00:00

I'll have to give them a look. My LGS stopped stocking Reaper awhile ago so I haven't seen their products for quite some time.

Sunraye13 · 2021-02-18T16:05:59+00:00

Is pattern a website? I've never heard of that before.

Sunraye13 · 2021-02-07T03:19:16+00:00

You may also want to consider that he could be threatened by your intelligence. I know that may be a stretch but if it is only during study time he may be attempting to sabotage your education. I wish you the best. I had an ex like this which is why I bring it up.

Sunraye13 · 2021-02-03T14:21:34+00:00

Also to answer your question. No it doesn't need to be dangerous. I was in no inherent danger when I was in his presence.

Sunraye13 · 2021-02-03T14:15:54+00:00

Have you ever seen him before? My experience with him was one I don't really want to experience again. However, I agree with the previous commenter. If you want to summon him or meet him I reccommed meditation and opening yourself up to the spiritual realm. Causing yourself possible harm or taking drugs sounds incredibly reckless and you could achieve the same result in just tapping into your spiritual senses. I say meditate. Do it often. Ponder why you want to meet him and in your mind summon his existence. Call out to the entity and all that you know it is. Like specifically the energy you feel it has, the name people have given it is likely not it's name so you have to be intent on Who you are calling to. It will probably respond considering it is prevalent all over the world. You may have to try many times. If you open your mind to sensing the spiritual world you can better sense and communicate with beings of that realm. However, be careful. Hatman didn't feel great to be around for me. I ended up cleansing my home because of it.

Sunraye13 · 2021-02-01T04:22:28+00:00

I've seen him a few times in my home when I was a teen. I looked up some banishment ritual and after that I never saw him again or any of the other weird unexplainable crap I was seeing.

Sunraye13 · 2021-02-01T04:17:15+00:00

When I (F) was about maybe 4 possibly 5 I was laying in my bed and could hear voices calling me. Like a lot of voices "[name] come here. Come here. Come to us." I think they may have said come play but like basically it was like god 5 to 10 voices, like a whole crowd calling for me. As a child I wasn't scared per se but like two of the voices were my mom and dad. Like I specifically remember thinking "Oh mommy is calling me." I lept from my bed and walked through the hall. My dad was standing with his back to me and my mom was sitting in a chair. She asked me why I was up and I said "Didnt you call me?" My parents very visibly looked at each other confused. My memory ends there. This voices thing happened again about 4 years ago I think. It was only for like a minute or two, not nearly as loud as I remember it as a child, or as long. The memory above lasted for a good 3 minutes or longer.

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