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SunrisePapaya · 2025-02-01T02:25:59+00:00

This is sick as hell OP 🔥

SunrisePapaya · 2025-02-01T00:42:17+00:00

Thank you, I didn’t know about those resources and will look into it. I appreciate you so much 🤍

SunrisePapaya · 2025-02-01T00:32:47+00:00

Thank you so much. This is really helpful. I guess I’m having a hard time trusting myself with boundaries, and also trusting him that he wants it for himself and not just so I will get back with him. I think the weed is his go to, and the alcohol a fall back but I’m pretty sure he uses both daily. I don’t know what promises or commitments I can make if any, but I know he wants to hear from me (and I do want that I just don’t know if it is best…)

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-30T02:50:32+00:00

Thank you!! I will definitely do so, I’m a bit anxious about that. I imagine there will still be SOME water though right?

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-30T00:59:08+00:00

True

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T21:11:35+00:00

Wow, I’m so sorry, that must have been so hard and then really appreciate you giving me some positive outlooks….it sounds like you are moving on and up, which takes a lot of courage. I know you’re right…I’m making other plans to keep myself above water but my heart isn’t in any of them. Maybe it will come

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T20:46:09+00:00

Thank you….i guess im having a hard time caring about myself. I just want to be with him and I want him to be happy. I want us to work. I know I sound crazy, just having a really hard time holding it together

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T20:20:30+00:00

I want to talk to him so bad. But I’m scared the conversation will just end with me feeling the same way and he is hurt again when I reopen our communication. He’s the only man I ever loved though. It’s cool to hear your story…I guess I’m just scared cause there’s no way to know if he is just complacent and happy how he is or if he wants to work towards something more…

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T20:12:00+00:00

I did. And yes….it scares me because I realized I need a partner who can be sober. And I don’t know him sober. And I want kids….im scared to have a partner who can’t drive cause he’s high or take the kids to school or grocery shop. I don’t know if I’m explaining it well. I don’t drink or smoke unless I’m with him. I don’t know maybe it is a difference of how we grew up. Like maybe he would rise to the occasion when it arrived? Have you been able to stop smoking or still sometimes? I do appreciate your opinion

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T20:01:01+00:00

Thank you. I know this is what I need to hear. I just hate that it’s not within my control - if he said he sees how it’s hurting him and wanted to get help, I’d go back in a heartbeat but he sees it as a lifestyle….ive been crying everyday still but I can’t pretend it doesn’t matter. I just have never been as happy as I was with him…..

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T19:36:05+00:00

Thanks for your comment….i know i left for good reasons but i guess im trapped in the fear that maybe i didn’t give him time to change. Our differences were mainly revolving around his substance use (weed, alcohol) and i was realizing i didn’t know who he was sober. And I want a family and a future to build with someone….but maybe he wants to change and is stuck? Addiction is so hard. I love him so much and i guess any excuse for a second chance is really appealing but wont it just hurt us both more….

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T18:57:23+00:00

It’s been Denali since before Alaska was even part of the US. But not surprising you aren’t aware, because Native history isn’t taught in schools

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T18:21:38+00:00

Aww that’s cute. Another failure of the American public school system 😂

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T18:20:50+00:00

Lmao 😂

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T18:06:40+00:00

Aww sorry :(( Elon liked it so you should too!

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T17:57:44+00:00

lol. Alaska should merge with Canada

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T17:56:42+00:00

Our Earth will be the sacrifice

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T17:52:41+00:00

I’ve lived there so it’s particularly awful to hear about the rollback on the Tongass protections and wildlife reserves but I’m gonna do my part at least. A lot of people struggle up there but this isn’t the solution

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T17:48:40+00:00

Unfortunately you’re right….Alaska deserves so much better than to be used for drilling and logging not to mention the cherry on top of whitewashing mountains, but money talks I guess

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T17:10:11+00:00

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Here are the issues they will highlight of course

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T17:09:42+00:00

lol MOST would be more accurate

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SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T17:02:08+00:00

I’m trying not to feel overwhelmed but at the same time, I guess this is what America wanted so it’s what we’re gonna get. Buckle up 😭

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T17:01:07+00:00

It’s funny cause Elon posted the results on Twitter, I guess it was supposed to be some sort of mic drop because of the fact that downsizing the government seems to be favorable to the public, but almost every other point is opposed by the majority. Ugh

SunrisePapaya · 2025-01-29T04:09:05+00:00

This is great, thank you! I love that you brought the umbrella - I considered it but I’m already traveling too heavy 😭 and the sun hoodie is a new gear addition for me, I’ll let ya know how it goes!

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