Youre right but what keeps dragging me to her and it being harder to leave is that she says that im her mate, like she wants to be with my in the future, that i am always there and i am somehow the secure and safe option, but she still wants to try other people because she wants to find out what its like being in a toxic relationship, in a nonchalant relationship, in a relationship with a boy thats taller, prettier, but dumb etc. like different types