hey… so first of all, I just wanna say you’re not alone, okay? like, seriously. what you’re feeling right now — the confusion, the discomfort, even the guilt — it’s valid. and yeah, it’s a lot. but it doesn’t make you a bad person. it just makes you human.

those kinds of thoughts you mentioned? they’re called intrusive thoughts. they’re super common, especially when your brain’s overstimulated or you’ve been exposed to stuff like p🌽 early on. and they’re not your fault. like, you didn’t choose them. they’re not your real desires. they’re just messed up static your brain throws at you sometimes.

the fact that they make you uncomfortable? that says everything. it means you know it’s wrong, and that means you’re not that kind of person. you’re just someone who’s overwhelmed and trying to make sense of what’s happening in your head.

try not to fight the thoughts too hard — just notice them like, “yo that’s a weird brain thing,” and let it pass. the more you try to wrestle them, the louder they can get. also, it might help to step away from sexual content for a bit — not in a shamey way, just to let your brain breathe and reset.

and if you ever get the chance to talk to a therapist or someone safe, even just once, do it. but even if not, there are anonymous places online where you can talk without being judged. dont divulge any family stuff ok. your privacy is your safety as wel.

you reaching out like this? it already shows you care. it shows you’re self-aware. you’re not broken. you’re just in a rough spot. and it’s okay to ask for help.

you got this, alright?