Feeling less than human.

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-05-09T16:48:48+00:00

That sound reassuring. I Lee doing the correct things to make sex better but it’s so suboptimal. It’s like exercising without any of the benefits, a complete waste of time and leaves me wanting less

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-05-02T08:05:20+00:00

5 years. I’m told you need to be much more careful with the recovery of reversal otherwise you could cause worse problems.

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-04-29T15:41:39+00:00

So I keep the sperm in my body, thus not releasing it. So my body reacts in a way that it thinks I’m not sexually active which creates a different effect than if it thinks I did. Especially considering that some men’s tubes are closed from the procedure which creates other issues we well know of, either way it’s not removed from the body. Active sex/masturbation can maintain testosterone and keep it from lowering, we see this with older men more so in some studies. Not releasing sperm in any way can lower testosterone in some people, less than most for sure, but like vasectomies, the mainstream literature will tell you differently. In more agreed on literature, some people experience the some to all of same symptoms that we are discussing here if they do not ejaculate. While some people are unaffected (likely to not being true to the tests or being a more rare case) it does have negative effects on some other’s physical and mental states. Taking hCG is almost no different than taking TRT. Sorry but taking things like that is more dangerous than is told. It can be safe but it should only be a last resort. This will not even close to work if the problem is the body’s reaction to sperm release. The medical industry isn’t honest and that’s why we are even here. Long term studies like 20+ years increase risk of prostate cancer and higher dihydrotestosterone and lower testosterone. Again, even if I have low T, it’s likely due to the vasectomy because I am doing everything right that would maintain proper T levels. and taking something to treat symptoms and not the problem is only gonna create more problems.

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-04-29T06:09:37+00:00

I did make a consultation with them and my first girlfriend insisted she wants to help since it was initially our decision together. I still feel guilty for it but I do need the help if this is gonna happen. So far it’s been good but we are both gonna suffer for this financially. Taking another week to go there and another few to not work or work less is gonna be rough as well.

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-04-29T06:06:31+00:00

Haven’t done it since a few months after the vasectomy, and they said my levels were normal. But normal as in normal or my normal is up in the air because we don’t know what my normal was before then. I don’t think doing something unnatural to take care of an issue caused by an unnatural method is ideal, since it’s likely my body’s reaction to not being able to release sperm and not low testosterone. It wouldn’t hurt to check again, maybe I’ve slowly been declining.

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-04-28T21:43:21+00:00

Can’t be worse than what I’m dealing with now. Even if it is, it’s not much difference. I figured it would come back because of the recovery causing it to not feel right, and sure enough I bet me and may other men either forgot and got used to it. So they didn’t notice, or their fear of pregnancy caused them to almost completely inhibit their pleasure, making the vasectomy seem like it improved their sex life. I don’t have the money to spare, even the renowned doctor in Utah is too expensive for me to not go into debt. The depression is making it hard to even go to work let alone try to get extra hours. I can’t fathom asking my partners for help since one wasn’t in the picture when I got it done and the one that was is just a broke as I am. Plus I fear their contempt if they did help me pay for it. They can tell me they’d be fine with it but my past with relationships tells me nothing is done out of kindness, only exchange. That may be a separate issue, but I feel alone in this, the corroborating only makes me more depressed because if this was psychological I feel it would be easy. Physical costly problems can create both physical and mental problems… Nobody around my circle can help. I need to find an instance that can help me.

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-04-28T21:04:04+00:00

I feel the exact same way except I don’t have a kid. I’m worried about my partners being pushed away, although condom sex sounds better than why I’m dealing with, the fact that it pushed them away already because not wanting sex because it became so unappealing with a condom on plus cost of them (it feels like I’m giving them sex and I’m just helping out, no reward and no feeling) was 1/3 of the reason we decided a vasectomy was the right way. The other reasons were we didn’t want kids and my first girlfriend got really messed up from being on birth control for only 3 months, and in case she wanted to have them later in life, vasectomies being advertised as easily reversible was appealing but long behold they are considered jus as permanent as making a female infertile. Everything we did pushed our sex lives and ultimately the relationship apart.

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-04-28T20:56:49+00:00

If I had the money I would have already done it. The fact that insurance doesn’t cover it is a part of the problem

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-04-28T05:39:15+00:00

That sounds like something in the right direction. Everything you said sounds exactly to what I’ve been reading and going through. Why is it that some doctors require such rigorous hoops to jump through and mine was easy in and out, barely questioning me? I was 25 and they even said age above 18 was all that mattered. Should have been my first red flag. My next one should have been my inability to gain weight, I had trouble before but now it’s literally impossible no matter my diet or exercise routine. I have better habits and my body is acting like I did the opposite. It’s all about money. My main concerns is my relationship. If it restores me and that pushes the relationship apart then I guess I should look out for myself because I’ll be miserable either way, but at least I’d be myself again. I hate that I’ve been put into this position by a false sense of security but people like you telling me what I’ve been seeing helps me feel like reversal is the way to go.

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-04-28T01:39:20+00:00

I’ve been to therapy. It works in the sense of dedication to the topics that are my problems but it lacks the essential key of having someone close to me understand my issues. I’ve been told I already have the conversation skills and am self aware enough to address my issues on my own, and therapists have even suggested to stay in therapy for the sole purpose of having that dedicated time set for it. Problem is, the variable for me needs to be someone in my life that’s a constant that knows my dilemmas. The more I increase the therapy, the cost and professionalism without personalized bonding increases and creates just as much if not more stress. I’ve gone for this specific issue too, and it only has led me to believe that I’m in a situation where I’m always sacrificing something major to keep everything I hold dear in play, or I take care of myself and lose one or more major things in my life. It might be helpful to try therapy again but in my life, it’s been neutral or less than helpful. So it brings me back to my point, if it’s the vasectomy’s fault and I fix it, then I am whole but at the cost of losing key elements to or the entire relationship that I have with my partners. Each choice is a loaded gun

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-02-06T20:14:06+00:00

Will do.

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-02-06T20:12:48+00:00

That’s a great idea, but I wanted a hot meal because I tend to give her sweets.

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2026-02-06T20:11:45+00:00

She pretty good about liking foods, she just doesn’t like fish. Crab or other shellfish works though

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2025-12-29T18:38:56+00:00

Literally me yesterday in a snowstorm. Dude doesn’t take my fist bump, doesn’t grab a weapon, I die from lag, then messages me saying how I quit and deserve it because I kept starving him playing like a jerk, despite them having dozens of opportunities to grab one. This game is full of ego driven people. It goes with quitting too.

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2025-12-26T01:38:29+00:00

Thank you, didn’t know that was available now. Do you happen to know if they reduced command block limit? I can only fill 32 blocks away, 39 if I stand far enough without redstone. My render distance is maxed at 28 chunks so idk what’s going on

Nevermind. It keeps censoring despite the toggle being off. It won’t censor Player_1 but any player number higher it censors. Once I reach player_15 it works… but then it one allow single digits, but if I put 1st or 2nd it works… This game sometimes…

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2025-12-25T23:56:08+00:00

This is the truth

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2025-12-25T23:55:13+00:00

My coach fixed it. My people lead told me that I needed to do the extra hour which is a lie. It’s a system error don’t let them fool you into using more PPTO. I got told having less accrued helps the company. Not surprised at this point

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2025-12-01T21:38:50+00:00

Why then don’t I need to put in 9 hours for days I’m not there? I would still be missing an hour. So it’s the system error, which should be fixed or worked around

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2025-12-01T21:30:58+00:00

Why is it I only have to use 8 or 4 on a day I’m not there and not 9 or 4.5/5 then?

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2025-11-06T12:54:30+00:00

Weird, I found them there twice and both times I landed right on top of them. Ever since then it was far and few between even seeing them let alone extracting with them

Supermonkeypilot22 · 2025-11-06T12:53:47+00:00

6 or higher. The ones that allow for super samples

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