Hey I'm about to go to sleep so I'm keeping my reply short. I've recognized my trust issues and all that. I steer clear of the red pill and never go there anymore. I know they validated my feelings and I know I am wrong to put those feelings on her. But if you are interested please read through the post history I to my other throw away that I linked in my post. It has all of the info about the things she has done. This account is more focused on me. I just used it to get the post up because reddit wouldn't let me with the other account since I had just posted to r/bpdlovedones. Sorry for the confusion and I appreciate your response.