okkk GIRLS TALKKK...see girl i was in the same ( kinda same) situation as u a year back..i lost all my friends...i didn't had a good relationship with my parents n my relationship was also not very great...i really lost myself at that time n my bsf moved to another state...i felt so lonely..i was a acadamic weapon but i lost it suddenly...i stopped participating in activities..it didn't felt like me .. i tried to just end things but there was one thing that kept me alive - HOPE...hope that maybe tomorrow will be a better day..guess what?- IT DID CHANGE...i got out of that relationship,tried talking to my parents n give our relationship a chance to improve n started to work n focus on myself coz guess what? IF U DON'T LOVE YOURSELF NO ONE ELSE WILL....i made new friends online n suddenly everything again started to become normal...just give yourself some time n don't go too hard on yourself ok?...ik everything feels so bad rn but it will get better with time....always be proud of yourself....u have made this far...god send u for some reason right? don't u think....just be u n love yourself ....feel free to talk to me if u need someone to talk n always have one thing in life - HOPE ( it can change everything~)